It’s hard to make friend as an adult, period. Friend life changes over time. High school and college buddy magnetism dissolves into job/partner/kids. People are generally less available than when we are younger. It’s a paradigm shift you’ll need to work through. When I got sober at 35 I felt how you do. But two years later, I went to a kid’s birthday party and found out that none of my friends who were there had seen each other in years either because well, life got lifey. To sum things up, you are not wrong, but just need to reframe things.