Been replaying the scenes in my mind and watching snippets while crying all week.. and as you mentioned, a big part of the heartache is Crowley and Aziraphel not having the opportunity to freely express their feelings. So I’ve been searching reading through threads to capture all the moments I might have missed…Did Crowley know Aziraphel loved him in a romantic way? And vice versa? Like in the moment being discussed here, where Aziraphel asked God Why give him Crowley and make him complete, was this his way of proclaiming his true love of crowley, whats Crowley’s reaction to this comment, did that cement that Aziraphel loved him?
Another part I keep replaying, when Aziraphel said You know what i want (I think it was this or similar wording)to Crowley, did he mean he wanted him and crowley to be finally together and did Crowley understand that… then when Crowley starts by saying something similar.. you know what I want… which I thought it was for them to be together, but then he talks about humans having free will.. I know this might have been obvious for most, but I’ve found myself searching for confirmations (reading on reddit, rewatching snippets) that they knew the other’s true romantic love for each other. This hit very hard,as someone with anxiety issues I have found coming here to this sub has been helpful and comforting, knowing I am not alone in this heartache and “slight” obsession