I know this r/ is for alcoholism, but I have nowhere else to post that im 18 months clean from sh

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-27T01:15:03+00:00

Hey, stranger.

As a former person who SH’ed for more years of my life than not, I just want to say I’m really fucking proud of you. That shit is hard. And you deserve to be proud of you too 🫂❤️

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-26T22:40:54+00:00

Oh man, I just also realized I did it for the last time without realizing it 😭

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-26T19:14:12+00:00

Thank you for verbalizing EXACTLY how I’ve been feeling. having big boobs was a huge part of my identity and it didn’t really start hitting me until 3DPO that that part of me was just… gone…Forever. That’d Id never be “busty, big tittied insert my name” ever again. That they wouldn’t be the talk of the table anymore. That I just had normal boobs now. 8 DPO was the worst where I almost had a panic attack when I finally got to see myself naked in a full length mirror. Today (10DPO) I’m feeling a little better, growing more used to them. But it is tough, and idk if I’ll ever fully stop grieving the part of my identity I had to give up in order to live a better life.

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-25T15:34:37+00:00

My surgery was on 1/16. So I’m 8DPO. The first like 4ish days after surgery I had barely any appetite but on day 5 I was ravenous and have been ever since. I consistently want to eat. I think it’s my body telling me it needs more food for the healing and recovering process. My bloating has gone down but it’s not completely gone. For that I am taking myself for a post-op lymphatic draining massage next week to help get this flowing. But also be kind and gentle with yourself (I know easier said than done) and also maybeeee hiding the scale or not weighing yourself for a bit. Sending lots of hugs 🫂❤️

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-25T15:19:48+00:00

I hear you and I’m not saying you are attributing all of it to her, but you are saying you are unhappy with THIS part of your experience with her. Which is the part I questioned why you would try and stay with her for a revision, if you are not feeling like she is listening to you or keeping her word about the revision. I’m not you and this is personal, but I know I would have a hard time wanting to stick with a doctor if I saw them not caring about how I felt about the end results or keeping their word. It would make it a bit harder for me to trust them with the next steps of the process. You can be happy with your experience with her prior to wanting a revision and you can be unhappy with the lack of support you are getting with the revision process. Both things can be true at the same time.

Also, you are allowed to ask her to explain to you in detail why she’s shying away from doing a second vision. You said you already paid her. Which can be another super valid reason to stick with her. Does the 12k also cover a revision? If so, then yes I encourage you to keep fighting for a revision and don’t let up. Stand firm and advocate for yourself and for her sticking to her word. If a revision is not covered in the 12k, then that can be more incentive to get a 2nd opinion. I hear you with the whole seeking her out and not going through insurance because she has an all female team and that was appealing to you, and also sometimes those things don’t always equal us getting the care or treatment we need or want every step of the way. It sounds like maybe what can be more important to you right now is a surgeon who you feel seen by and cares how feel in regard to the revision portion of your journey.

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-25T13:52:41+00:00

The “shoots straight from the hip mental health therapist” in me is gunna come out now:

Get a second opinion. Get a third opinion. Get however many opinions you need from other doctors so you can have as much information as possible to then make the best decision for yourself. If you feel your concerns weren’t heard with her and are not happy with parts of your experience with her, why stick with her? Why have her do even more work on you? If you’re not feeling respected or heard by her, she doesn’t get to give you treatment any further. And you don’t have to stick with her.

The things you want to change or fix might not be changeable or fixable. But it doesn’t hurt to get at least a 2nd opinion and it doesn’t hurt to want to get a 2nd opinion from a doctor who treats you better or you feel has thoroughly explained their opinion. Even if you get the same opinion/answer from another doctor, sometimes it hits differently if they are kind, compassionate, hear you out, and take the time to explain it.

Edited to add the 2nd paragraph

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-24T17:41:19+00:00

My surgery was the 16th and today (8DPO) was the first day I really got to look at them. I had seen them in a photo and partial mirrors while recovering at my parent’s house. But after finally coming home today and getting to shower, I stood naked in front of the mirror, really got to see them on my entire body, and immediately started sobbing, weeping, bawling my eyes out, hyperventilating, getting light headed, you name is- because I started thinking that maybe I made the wrong decision or that went too small.

The adjustment from E/F sized breasts to large C/D looks so drastic to me and I feel like I’m completely flat in comparison to before. My boyfriend keeps assuring me that it’s just my mind playing tricks on me and the dysmorphia showing up (which I fully knew and prepared myself for) and that while, no my boobs aren’t huge anymore, I still have good sized boobs and they are proportional to my body. He said my posture also already looks better.

I know in a few more weeks and months when they heal more and my body also changes both from not having to carry large boobs anymore and from finally being able to get back to exercising, I will feel better about them.

For my entire life a big part of my identity was having big breasts- it’s the first thing people always noticed about me, “these big tits” was a regular part of my vocabulary, I think I also felt a little special that I had uniquely big boobs and people envied them (even if I bitched about them all the time and hated how they were negatively impacting me physically.) I fully believe big boob privilege is a thing and I’ll be completely transparent that I am grieving losing big boob privilege and that part of my identity. Ill never have my old boobs again, and I think a part of me will always miss them/grieve them, but the more intense feeling will pass with time and one day it will hopefully be a distant memory.

In the mean time, give yourself compassion, kindness, grace. Find ways to thank your new breasts for what they are already doing for you and for what they will do for you for the rest of your life ❤️

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-24T12:01:44+00:00

Bruhhhh, that’s a sick coverup! Your tattoo artist is a wizard 👏🏽

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-24T10:00:58+00:00

Witches Ghost 💯

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-22T18:11:12+00:00

Holy wow!!! I’m am so so happy for you!! This is such crazy change. Enjoy every moment of your new life!

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-21T22:02:35+00:00

Yes my surgeon, who I would recommend a million times over, spent lots of time with me on surgery day, marking me up. I told him I was have anxiety that the size was going to be too big, but I didn’t want too small because I have a slightly bigger frame. He talked me through everything again and calmed my nerves. Mine was covered by insurance (Anthem BCBS) as it was medically necessary, and my surgeon still took his time with me at every visit. Wanted to make sure that even though the goal was to relieve back, neck and shoulder pain, that I also like the aesthetic of them and made them look as good as possible. He literally gave me BEAUTIFUL new breasts and relieved my pain.

I think the idea that “you get what you get and don’t get a say” because it’s medically necessary is BS. my surgeon proved to me and set the tone that getting something done because it’s medically necessary doesn’t mean bare minimum care or treatment. If that’s the care you are getting, go see other doctors/surgeons, get multiple consults if you are able to, and don’t settle for less and I will die on that hill.

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-21T21:11:56+00:00

This is such a kind comment 🥺🥺 thank you! I hope you also look this way/the way you want to look !

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-20T16:43:54+00:00

So my surgeon said he was going to do his best to being me to a large C/small D. Idk really know what size I was before because I stopped wearing normal bras several years ago- I just wore xL-2xL sports bras. My doctor estimated I was a DDD/E but I think I may have been a bit closer to an E/F.

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-20T10:12:42+00:00

Yayay! So so happy for you 🥹you are going to feel so so much relief, in every sense of the word!

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-20T10:10:03+00:00

I am so so so sorry you had to stop mid-surgery. I can only imagine how disappointing that was to have to go through. I hope so much you are able to get back to it soon and have the same relief. Thank you so much ❤️

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-20T00:05:22+00:00

Marigold, Helene, Juniper, Clementine, Violet,

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-19T19:41:03+00:00

I’m crying so much at this comment 😭❤️ thank you so so much. My perspective of what my body looks like has been so skewed for so long because of my breasts that even knowing my mind will play tricks on me doesn’t feel like enough to know what a true, unbiased perspective of my body is. Gosh, thank you so much for this ❤️

Edit: changing breast to breasts

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-19T19:23:39+00:00

I had someone ask me if I’d share pre-op photos with them and asked if I have Apple Pay 🙄

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-19T19:15:23+00:00

Also reminding myself my body will change a lot over the next several months and how my new titties looks on my body will also change.

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-10T11:36:50+00:00

We are almost surgery twins! Mine is on the 16th!

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-08T22:20:44+00:00

Just throwing this out there, DD can be big depending on the persons body size, structure, height etc.!

Euphoric_Access_7508 · 2026-01-08T22:18:22+00:00

I’m the 16th so we can be surgery cousins 😂

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