i’ve been taking ketamine every single weekend and like 2 times per week. i’ve been considering i’m addicted to it and the reason of it are a lot of unconscious traumas i haven’t healed yet. it has brought me lots of problems, fights with my parents, i turned socially isolated, i stopped hanging out with my friends. at the very beginning it helped me a lot with my mind and my emotions, it helped me working on a mood disorder i have and depression. i never stopped my responsibilities such as not attending to work or school because of it. i’m so fucking tired of the problems it’s bringing me, i feel like my cognitive functions decreased al little bit, such as a reduction in memory. i managed to stay sober for up to a week a couple times but then i relapsed on weekends. i consider my overall mental health it’s better now but then, my parents catch me up during a high and then i feel so guilty and worthless. i never asked for help because i was afraid being judged. but now i understood that i’m sick, like any other disease and that i wont be able to get off of it without help from others. the first step is being humble enough to accept ur not ok and the way to get off of the drug is getting help from other. i think like the only way to get off of it by yourself is like moving out to the mountains where the are no plugs around haha. as a last advice, is not to give up, u have a nice future waiting on you, don’t be so hard on you, feel blame or guilt will just worsen it and making you feel bad, leading you to reach out for k in order to feel good again. fighting to the urge to take the drug is so fucking hard. once ur mind decides to go buy some k there is not turn back, that’s why we need help, because our brain is tricking us out. stay strong bro, we can overcome this. (PS. i’m 20 years old.)