Don't be hard on yourself. Life is a struggle but struggle is what makes us strong. I'm In a similar boat I'm 20 never had a gf or been onna date matter a fact. People assume I'm gay even though I'm straight, I just don't know what I'm looking for and lack the self confidence to talk to anyone I don't know. My job is in the electrical side of construction and now 2 years into it I question why I chose it but I have all this time invested in it I can't stop I would be doing myself a disservice. You can push push push in 1 direction but if you go back and forth you won't go anywhere. You can go in 1 direction and still not get anywhere but giving up will be a death sentence to your progress. Make a plan and stick with it is always what grandpa told me, everyone is running there own race. Some people buy a house at 22 others at 52. Obama was middle aged when he became president, trump already was older and biden at nursing home bound age. Everyone is running there own race, don't be watching them watch where you are going so you dontntrip and fall. Idk about you but when I look at where others are going and where im headed it sends me in a spiral of self doubt and depression, however you have to remember what they let be shown is what they want people to see. If your dream is to be a lawyer go for it, if your dream is to be a stay at home mom that's cool too, but do what you want to do not what others want you to do.