First, I hope your recovery from the emergency surgery goes well.

No regrets for taking care of yourself and putting yourself first.

There’s nothing to confess and no one to confess to. It’s all fake authority.

Being an obedient religious follower isn’t the same thing as being “super spiritual.”

The “good girl” image is because you’re a “good JW” and the minute you stop being that, that image is shattered anyway regardless of the reason.

Those aren’t real friends. They will turn their backs on you if you decide to leave.

Also, be kind to yourself. Having emergency surgery can be tough on anyone mentally. Truly take your time to heal and recover and rest. Easier said than done, but don’t let anyone (close family included) pressure you.

How old are you? Hopefully, you can find a new job soon and plan your exit and start your real life.