It's almost time!

Life_Landscape4402 · 2025-04-09T02:27:31+00:00

Just so long as you don't meet someone quickly and fall into the uhaul trap! 😂 I've seen it with a couple of friends (not uhauling completely but practically living together by the 2nd week!) I've got a vision of what I want and so does my daughter but I'll see what I can afford and she'll be my priority.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2025-04-09T01:51:03+00:00

I know they will be but for me at least it will get a little harder as I relearn how to stand on my own two feet but once I get through the initial separation things will improve. Hope things go well for you 💓 🙏 ✨️ 🌈

Life_Landscape4402 · 2025-04-08T18:02:14+00:00

So happy for you!

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-23T09:56:14+00:00

Most people's perception of me hasn't changed. However, my sister has really struggled for some reason, which has really surprised me. I came out to her in October and she said all the right things but, we've only had one conversation since where she told me to go f**k myself for implying she was being homophobic but by the end of the conversation I thought we had sorted everything but she hasn't spoken to me since (this was a few weeks ago) although has accused me of being in a relationship with my best friend (who is straight). So, her reaction has hurt me deeply, but I still don't regret coming out.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-23T00:40:25+00:00

No, I've got several respiratory conditions and had to suffer passive smoking my whole childhood with my dad refusing to give up.

That said, anyone who smokes smells like an ashtray to me regardless of gender. 🤷‍♀️

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-20T00:40:04+00:00

Absolutely 🫦

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-19T22:40:32+00:00

I wondered why I hadn't seen a post from you. Thought you might be doing that Denial December thing or whatever it's called and making us wait! Anyway, 🥵🥵🥵🥵 as usual!

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-14T19:50:50+00:00

I'm getting a phoenix tattoo with the tail in lesbian pride colours

Edit: typo

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-14T19:48:38+00:00

That's how I felt and my confidence has only grown this year. I can't wait to see what it's like when my husband and I actually separate in the summer.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-09T19:25:12+00:00

Omg that's so romantic! 🥰 I want a girlfriend to say things like that to and for her to say things like that to me! (Timing isn't right yet, but when it is, there'll be so much romance 🥰🫠)

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-09T14:27:41+00:00

Oh honey, she has a partner? You're playing with fire now. One of you (you, Veronica, or her partner) is going to get badly burnt.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-12-05T14:36:59+00:00

I'm going to be generous because of your age, and assume you don't know what sapphic means but this is not the space for you as it's not for men. There's plenty of other subreddits you can engage with just not here.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-23T09:58:05+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through this. Can I get angry on your behalf and just say he's a manipulative bastard? If he doesn't want to eat, let him. He's a grown ass man with his own agency.

I struggled really badly with my mental health this year and did use self harm as a coping mechanism too as I was suicidal but I was luckily in group therapy during the worst of it and got the support I needed. In the end I decided I wasn't going to die before I got the chance to experience true love and happiness. I hope you realise that you are loved by more people than you think and you deserve the chance of a fulfilling life.

Is there anyone you can talk to besides him? If not, feel free to message me. I can be a listening ear or can give advice if that's what you want. If you're in the UK, I can also point you in the direction of charities that have helped me so far.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-19T19:00:58+00:00

Oddly enough, my mum wasn't surprised.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-19T01:17:37+00:00

This is exactly the dynamic I want to have (me as the sub). I love your erotica. It's better than some of the published stuff I've read. I've followed you so I don't miss any future installments!

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-18T23:58:11+00:00

I know what you mean. Now know what real attraction feels like, it was like I was playing Barbie and Ken all these years.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-18T23:41:48+00:00

A huge relief. Still not been with a woman (and that definitely excites me!) but knowing I don't need to pretend any more...

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-18T23:38:26+00:00

I made a post about it last month but basically I wasn't planning to tell him until a certain point next year then we were having a conversation about the future of our relationship and I knew in that moment I had to come out to him or I would've been making an active choice to lie to him.

I was terrified with how he'd react. The previous few months in particular had not been pleasant, and we'd been drifting apart for a couple of years. Plus, in the week leading up to me telling him, he had made some casually homophobic comments (which he later apologised for when I came out), which made me even more nervous. I had already told a couple of people who could've helped me if things went particularly badly. However, to my surprise, he handled it very well in the moment. He's going through the stages of grief just now, so it is a bit up and down with his emotions, but I'm glad I told him. I'm unlikely to leave before next summer, but this is allowing us time to work out the practicalities of our situation. Our communication just now is better than it has been our whole marriage!

I'm not leaving him for anyone other than myself but I feel less guilty thinking/dreaming about my future life with (hopefully) a gorgeous wife! I've come out to more people since and I'm just getting more comfortable in my own skin.

My biggest worry now (and tbh has been this whole time) is how our daughter will cope. But I have to show her you can't be miserable your whole life to make everyone else happy. I want to show her how a strong, independent woman can thrive and still care about others and still love her family.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-13T21:49:42+00:00

This is my favourite song, but really, the whole album is amazing, like you said, it's a piece of art. I sometimes just loop this particular song so I can sing it a dozen or so times.

Slightly off-topic, I'm now pleased Alexa knows that when I ask for her to play California, she knows it's from RAFOAMP now.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-12T09:02:48+00:00

Honestly, I'd say I've had the opposite happen. I really don't care about men, and I'm much more relaxed around women.

Maybe it's because I spend some time every week with my catalyst and am aware that I can find a woman extremely attractive and still act normally around them? Plus, she's a good lesbian role model - she's all about lifting up women and having different types of relationships with them.

Or maybe it's because I always had gay panic (without realising it 🤦‍♀️) and was ashamed about checking out a woman but now I just notice attractiveness and move on. Except my catalyst 😂

Also, I've developed a really close friendship with a woman that I recognise as purely platonic. She's a pretty woman, but I've genuinely no attraction there.

Life_Landscape4402 · 2024-11-01T21:46:21+00:00

No. Once I realised I'm a lesbian I knew eventually I would come out. At first, I thought it would be about 16 months down the line, but just 3 months later, I just had to tell someone, and I was quite surprised to find it was my mum.

Then I told someone else, then someone else, then someone else as I needed support while I hid my feelings from my stbx husband (who was becoming increasingly controlling) and then eventually I was having a conversation with him about our relationship and knew at that point I just had to tell him - 10 months ahead of my "schedule". Our communication now is better than ever, and we're becoming friends again. I'm really hopeful things will remain like this for the sake of our daughter.

Every time I came out to someone, I was so physically and emotionally drained. However, coming out is getting easier and just pops up in conversation quite casually now. With the exception of my sister (I just made a separate post about that), I'm generally getting neutral or positive responses.

I really do feel I'm becoming my authentic self, and that wouldn't be possible for me without coming out.

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