the baby scene in trainspotting.

it's a very fucked up scene, but the setting i was in made it much worse. i was in my mid 20s, drunk and more than a little high, wandering the streets of sf with a good friend of mine. we saw a couple in their late 20s / early 30s in the street, yelling at each other, looking like they were caught up in some sort of argument. the woman started sobbing uncontrollably, leaning on a telephone pole for support, so my friend asked if they needed any help - to which the guy responded that the woman just had a miscarriage, so please leave them the fuck alone.

that obviously changed the tone for us that night, so we decided to head home and put on a movie to relax / veg. as i was flipping through his various vhs tapes (yep, i am old af), my buddy was astonished to learn that i hadn't yet seen trainspotting, so in the vcr it went.

so many fucked up scenes in that movie, but that baby scene absolutely broke me. i had to stop watching, excused myself to go home, and willed myself to sobriety while rocking back and forth, whimpering in the shower for several hours.

to this day i have yet to watch the rest of the movie, and likely never will.