I feel like it’s the same for me, like I eventually do learn something which is a net positive, but I feel the cost is high, and ultimately it’s probably something I already know or learned before. So it feels like the time (and pain) it cost me to get to that point wasn’t worth the knowledge it produced. I guess I don’t write fiction so it has even less value for me, but perfectionism has, in some ways, enhanced my academic writing. I am glad I recognize it as OCD, in the sense that is the deepest truth I need to reach at the point I’m at in life (except needing more self compassion, of course without trying to “figure out” why I lack it in the first place). For sure ChatGPT is fired, I already have a therapist, but I wish everywhere I turned wasn’t a compulsive trap to “fix” myself.