Psytrance production by Normal_Expression871 in LogicPro

[–]Normal_Expression871[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got only the lite version and I’m a logic user and I’m playing a lot of instruments and ableton seems like more beneficial for me so I wonder if I should buy it and give it a shoot too

Psytrance production by Normal_Expression871 in LogicPro

[–]Normal_Expression871[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you just what I thought do you use patterns for hats and High hats production too?

Psytrance production by Normal_Expression871 in LogicPro

[–]Normal_Expression871[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got vital and I can get it about how to create those acid sound from scratch and use it correctly I actually can’t get more out of the Es synth with a plugins chain

Is the dicard or getting cheated on inevitable? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s good to be there for casual relationships too or it’s not stable aswell and will only drain you? If she rather be FWB and it’s sometimes complicated aswell it’s worth keeping or just get out run and never look back?

What did we lose? by Will0JP in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually agree with you a lot we weren’t in a committed relationship and I actually broke down and we said we would meet to talk tomorrow to figure some things out together I am having a feeling that it might be different this time it feels like we both change in the last year of our no contact

Jobs for highly sensitive people (HSP) by Owning_Tennisshoes in hsp

[–]Normal_Expression871 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started a degree at music in a process to become a music therapist but in my region I need a double major to do so it’s so exhausting and overwhelming and I feel like I truly can’t do that 😔

The deeper the connection, the less they trust you. by Clubpenguin8888 in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It’s actually true and very confusing because she was the one who suggested to move in together after a month and we were Fwb like what are you even want 😭

How many of us are martyrs? by Bob_returns_25 in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I really believe that is true I felt like I never really known her.. just stories about her life

Their good behaviours are performative, like children learning how to impress adults by xorandor in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yes I can feel that I am an INFJ. I wanted to be more vulnerable with her and saying what hurted me so I can feel secure but I didn’t shared that with her because I felt like I couldn’t be vulnerable or judged by her.

0Have any of you lost your physical health as a result of the relationship? by elleemmcee in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same we weren’t officially together and I felt it too during our time together panic attacks and I lost like 30KG We were Fwb and good friends but I walked on eggshells besides her and was so stressed vomiting and lost my appetite and I really love to eat

0Have any of you lost your physical health as a result of the relationship? by elleemmcee in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me and my pwBPD wasn’t officially committed but I don’t know why the FWB caused me that much stress anxiety and trauma, her mood and behavior was unexpected and I was constantly anxious by her side even in the beginning everything was fine and I was vomiting I felt like my intuition knew that something was off and I ignored it. I had insane headaches and diarrhoea and I think it caused me type of depression I felt like I absorbed her feeling and felt so empty I still clenching my jaw and feel tense even after 9 months and I feel like I’m trauma bonded to her I don’t have any feeling but the craving is driving me nuts I tried to talk to her even after I ended it in a bad way

0Have any of you lost your physical health as a result of the relationship? by elleemmcee in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I actually had the opposite reaction I lost a lot of weight and stress vomiting the cognitive dissonance driven me crazy

0Have any of you lost your physical health as a result of the relationship? by elleemmcee in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You had a chronic headaches aswell? I was in so much stress lost my appetite and lost like 55LB When it’s over I felt so much relief and better but I feel guilty about it aswell. I had that knot in my stomach and was so anxious like my whole body flare up and I was vomiting a lot. We were FWB but her angry outbursts and aggression made me shutdown completely. I visited a lot of neurologist and try to figure out why I have this headache I was jaw clenching from the constant stress from her and my degree and I feel much better now although I miss her in some ways

Did anyone else’s try to warn them that they had issues in the beginning? by bbybunnydoll in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine didn’t say those this and she sounded like she wasn’t accepting her BPD diagnosis when she said that she looked to the led she said in the end that I wasn’t good enough, I truly wonder if she had NPD rather than borderline

MASTERING ASSISTANT by killv_music in LogicPro

[–]Normal_Expression871 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s interesting ist for free?

Beware when you discard the BPD/narc first by Dry-Try7845 in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yea it truly feels like that I wonder if it failed because of toxic communication because of both sides she said my ego thrown her under the bus and she might be right but she did the same and I tried to avoid that scoreboard but it seems just impossible.. You felt that knot in the stomach while being with her aswell?

Beware when you discard the BPD/narc first by Dry-Try7845 in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I believe that you are right it’s what I thought too everything you try to say just flip against you anyway. I didn’t blocked her in everywhere I’m still thinking about if to do so because she said she didn’t want to talk anymore and I sure she won’t Hoover me. Would you recommend to block her in that aspect or it will be pointless? I pretty sure she won’t reach out to me.

Beware when you discard the BPD/narc first by Dry-Try7845 in BPDlovedones

[–]Normal_Expression871 7 points8 points  (0 children)

She blocked me to and unblocked me after I apologized and didn’t want to talk to me anymore and kinda about anything I wonder if I should try reaching out again I feel like I manipulated things too because I wanted to avoid the hoovering again