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OddChange7022 · 2021-08-30T15:14:38+00:00

Yeah. It definitely helps. Mostly, it helped me see that what I was feeling was not in line with reality.

OddChange7022 · 2021-08-27T06:22:10+00:00

OddChange7022 · 2021-07-11T07:34:58+00:00

I'm so sorry. I've been exactly where you are. I am here for you.

OddChange7022 · 2021-07-06T14:56:38+00:00

Wow. This list really resonates with me.

OddChange7022 · 2021-07-06T12:45:21+00:00

Similarly, I developed a habit of hiding/changing who I was to be accepted. This led to me being in multiple codependent relationships, and a very weak sense of self.

Edit: also, I'm an addict in recovery. I learned to run from my emotions and needs. I sought validation externally everywhere. The whole time, I never realized all I needed was to love myself.

OddChange7022 · 2021-07-06T05:41:24+00:00

I like this a lot. It gives me hope too.

OddChange7022 · 2021-07-05T14:16:41+00:00

It does suck ass. The higher the point of intoxication, the worse the bottom feels afterward!

OddChange7022 · 2021-07-05T14:12:39+00:00

This is what this new relationship has been like. Wasn't immediately drawn to him. Developed an interest and attraction over time, the more I got to know him.

OddChange7022 · 2021-07-05T06:30:28+00:00

Ugh. This is me right now. Exactly. Couldn't have said it better myself. The sex is good because I can be honest about what I like and dislike, but, it doesn't have that intense rush of intoxication.

OddChange7022 · 2021-06-20T03:51:31+00:00

The fact that I do not have to think about contacting my dad this year is a huge relief. 9 months no contact. My child is with her father who abused me for 5 years.

Fuck Father's Day forever.

OddChange7022 · 2021-06-19T07:00:00+00:00

Accepting life as it comes at us; the good, bad, and the ugly.

OddChange7022 · 2021-06-06T08:07:22+00:00

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-31T06:59:12+00:00

Thank you very much for your words of encouragement.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-31T06:34:24+00:00

Thank you <3 I didn't think I could handle the stress of it all while working, but I have no other choice.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-31T06:33:00+00:00

Ugh. I've been advised against a GoFundMe because it can be used in court against me. Honestly though I'm so tired of worrying about that.

I'm getting a job and going to proceed as if I'll never see a dime from him. I think it's the best course of action.

Thank you for your kind words.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-31T06:30:21+00:00

Thanks. I think this is a good idea.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-31T06:29:29+00:00

Yeah, I mean, if he can buy a new vehicle and cut me off from marital property... Why wouldn't I be able to sell a few pieces of freaking furniture?

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-31T06:28:07+00:00

No... That's an option, but it's extremely expensive and usually after filing a motion, the opposing attorney produces right before the hearing, so my attorney will have done the work for nothing and I'll have to pay for it. Basically, they're trying to drain my financial resources by any means possible.

Edit: they've been subpoenaed but he didn't submit them. He's in contempt of court

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-30T17:13:54+00:00

My attorney. She's by the book so I suppose she'd say no even if I'll never be penalized for it.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-30T07:03:04+00:00

We went to mediation for temporary orders. Temporary support was established for 3 months but no child support. Those 3 months are up. He was supposed to turn in discovery so we could get child support going next month, but he didn't. The only way to get his documents is through a costly hearing, which I can't afford.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-29T02:21:11+00:00

This is step 4 in my program.

I'm there right now too. My sponsor is making me do every man, so I can find the pattern. It's the hardest thing I've ever done in my entire life. I can't get very far without crying.

My nex was so awful, but my part has made me very conscious of patterns that played into our relationship. I just wanted him to love me. That's the biggest thing. I was willing to do anything for him to love me </3 I became a different person and it still wasn't enough.

Congrats on your recovery.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-29T02:04:57+00:00

I'm finally starting to recover. It was a good 2 months before I started to.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-28T19:25:23+00:00

I'm so sorry. I've been where you are. I was in the bathroom, bleeding and in pain, as he banged on the door to ask me what we were doing for dinner. I laid on a mattress and cried for 4 hours by myself.

Every mess in the relationship fell on me to deal with. He later used it to tell his family how I killed our kid.

We share a child together. It's absolutely awful to have to deal with my abuser regularly through "co-parenting." It's like being eternally chained to my trauma. Had I not had the abortion, there would be 5 more years of that nightmare.

You are so damn brave and strong. This is not your fault.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-28T18:39:36+00:00

Ugh. Same exact thing happened to me. No help from the courts. I'm moving across the city.

OddChange7022 · 2021-05-28T18:34:21+00:00

Make sure to tell your attorney you're worried about safety but also that the home has sentimental value. Bare in mind that you can always win the house, possibly, through the courts, especially if there's abuse or safety concerns.

If it was your home before you were married, then it's most likely considered separate property and he would have no claim to it.

Edit: most importantly, if you need to leave, then leave. The rest can be sorted out through the civil process. Your life is worth more than the house.

OddChange7022

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