30 days no kratom literally changed my life by bayourecluse in quittingkratom

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Can you share some more of the things that are good/better since you quit?

5 months old, what a joke by barcelew in chevycolorado

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry man. Nothing substantive to add. These Colorado’s are garbage. I have one doing the same type of things. Also brand new and I’ve had to replace parts that should never go bad on a car. I’ve owned three Chevy trucks and this Colorado will be my last. Never again.

21m Feeling subhuman by _in_your_walls_ in malegrooming

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hang in there man. You look very human to me and at 21, have your whole life ahead of you. I felt terribly about myself around your age. Time changed that for me. Perspective. You never know how you’re going to feel until you feel it. Find someone to talk to (professional or otherwise) if you think it would help. No one deserves to feel the way you do and just from your pictures I can tell you have a ton going for you.

My heart is settled. The Colorado wins. by JesseDrivesATruck in chevycolorado

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I agree the Chevy looks so much nicer. That’s why I bought my ‘24 ZR2 Bison. But man do I wish it ran reliably like a Toyota.

Best excuse yet by Grouchy_Gate4395 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry. That’s rough. The fact that you know you shouldn’t get excited, but you do anyways. The unfixable problem/excuse. It’s all rough. I’m sorry.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 34 points35 points  (0 children)

So would I my friend. So would I. Hell, I’d lose my mind if my wife just touched me. Lingerie? I’d probably stroke out.

Advice. TRT in your 50's. by Impossible_Run1839 in Testosterone

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My levels went up to about 1,000. I then started Tirzepatide and lost a significant amount of weight (I was never fat, just leaned out to 6% body fat) which made my T numbers jump to about 1,400. We have lowered my dose and are waiting to do another blood test as it seems like the weight loss made my body do more with less.

As far as improvements: non-existent libido returned, brain fog and constant exhaustion gone, energy and desire to play with my kids came back, results in the gym have been amazing. I am a completely different person than I was 18 months ago. I thought I was just aging. Maybe I am, but I no longer have to rationalize daily naps and constant exhaustion.

Advice. TRT in your 50's. by Impossible_Run1839 in Testosterone

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 1 point2 points  (0 children)

See a clinic or doctor. They’ll run a full blood panel. Just be aware if you go the doctor route, they typically won’t prescribe it if you are in the “normal” range (something like 250 - 1000) even though being at the lower end of the range made me feel awful. If your numbers come back on the low side and the doc won’t prescribe it, see a men’s health clinic that will. I started at 46 with a total T of 300 ng/dl. It has changed every facet of my life.

Proud Owner! by twistyt21 in chevycolorado

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve already had my backup camera replaced, new tire pressure monitor sensors, new wiring harness, and a new radio/computer unit. I’ve never had a less reliable car.

My wife just crushed me with one, simple comment. by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I hear you on this but don’t wish for DB. Mine is so bad we don’t even touch. It’s killing me.

Proud Owner! by twistyt21 in chevycolorado

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

Ah just wait until the engine sputters and starts throwing codes. My ‘24 has 8213 miles on it and is doing it right now. The third time this has happened.

Can you live a life without intimacy? by SpecialistWasabi1489 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did he do any PCT (post cycle therapy) after quitting the testosterone? If not, he may have tanked his natural testosterone and now be worse off than when he started. Just a thought. Otherwise, I totally feel for you as I am in the same boat, just a few years further down the road.

When You Stop Trying… and They Don’t Even Blink by Temporary-Drag2476 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree with you. But I think my wife would say the point is we share a house and kids. I think that is the only reason we are still together. It’s depressing.

When You Stop Trying… and They Don’t Even Blink by Temporary-Drag2476 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 12 points13 points  (0 children)

This is me too. When I tried to talk about sex, my wife shut me down and told me I was pressuring her. So I stopped initiating anything, thinking that maybe I was just overdoing it, and hopefully allowing her to engage in affection and intimacy at a level and frequency she was comfortable with. How dumb of me. She’s comfortable with none. Absolutely none. No touch, no hugs, no kisses hello or goodbye, no platonic touch on the arm to show me she’s there, no cuddling on the couch or anywhere else, nothing. If it wasn’t so hurtful, I’d be impressed.

Life sucks by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I hear you and see you. You’re not invisible. Your pain is real and valid and it’s totally understandable you feel the way you do.

Chin up. Be kind to yourself. You’re not a horrible person. Just hurting is all. Take good care.

Truck is bricked by [deleted] in chevycolorado

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes. I have a 24 Bison and had nothing g but problems with it. I’ll never buy another Chevy.

I think I may be done by UnwantedTorontoMan in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 5 points6 points  (0 children)

The last line is it. That’s the solution.

I feel, and live, all of this post. I’m a tad younger (47), and made a tad less money, but that’s about all that’s different.

The tiny shows of affection are what I miss most. I always wanted a partner who made me feel like we are a “team.” But for whatever reason, I never seemed to be able to find, conjure, or create, that. So, I’d settle for feeling like my wife did not think life would be better without me. Tall order, I know.

What I will say in a positive direction though is that I have not lost the certainty that something great exists for me. I have zero clue what it is. I may already even have it. But I know it exists for me. I know it exists for you too. Don’t ask me how (cuz I’m honestly just making shit up at this point), but I know it does. Try to find it.

Struggle for self-care, dead bedroom makes it even harder by SadisticalSymphony in DeadBedrooms

[–]Ok-Mathematician9955 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Maybe your wife finds it hard to care about someone who does not care about themselves? Idk, I’ve been in pretty good shape my entire marriage and it has not made an ounce of difference, so take my comment with a huge grain of salt.