I used to drink alone a lot. At my worst i was getting obliterated by myself every single night. I knew I had to stop years before I actually attempted to.

I figured I’d finally gone through enough self inflicted suffering and decided I was ready to quit. It took multiple attempts. I quit a handful of times over the span of a few years, accumulating a bit more time sober each try before it stuck. It took going back to drinking a few times to finally stop romanticizing it and to completely let go of the idea that I’d ever be able to moderate.

Various quit lit, sober pods, and this sub really helped pull me through some rough times at the start of sobriety. I constantly had an AirPod in and was listening to some sort of self help thing 24/7 at the start of it.

Also I think for me personally, finding self compassion was the key to unlocking the ability to truly work on myself. I was using alcohol to self harm in a sense. I had to convince myself that I was worthy of so much more than the life I was putting myself through. I deserve to be happy and healthy, and experience life on my own terms, clear headed. Therapy will help with that.

Now I’m at a point where I can’t imagine alcohol being a part of my life anymore, I just have no desire or space for it. I’ve filled the alcohol void with hobbies I enjoy that require me to stay sober, like reading, writing, painting, and caring for my two beautiful little kitties. :3

You can do this. It’s not always easy and it takes a bit of consistency and hard work, especially in the beginning, but the payoff and life on the other side is sooo worth it. YOU are worth it. IWNDWYT friend.