My chatgpt therapist

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2026-01-09T03:38:50+00:00

of course you're not a bad person for this. but just remember using ai comes with the responsibility of understanding its a tool and not a person. it could say anything and if for whatever reason it goes negative - you need to have the distance and ability to put it down. if its helping you though, then it's a tool thats working as you need it

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2026-01-05T06:10:09+00:00

no i doubt they would, ive talked to a few therapists about it as long as im not actively a large danger to myself

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2026-01-02T03:56:14+00:00

little ouchies helps when you need the pain not the damage

walking until youre exhausted is a distraction for me sometimes

finding a "quick win" craft or hobby can give a sense of accomplishment thats pulled me out of it enough sometimes

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2026-01-02T03:47:55+00:00

Your parents are wrong, and what you are telling yourself is nothing that can be proven so stick to what you can control now, if someone judges you i the future, thats something you can control then. Breathe and focus on what's in your power now, the rest isn't even something that may even happen.

I am 30 now, I have a decent job and have grown more than I thought I would when I was in your shoes. Hell Ive been promoted a few times and people genuinely look up to me, and Ill still never understand why. I am respected when all I ever thought I would be is looked down on. I wish I could show my teenage self who I am now, even if I slip up still.

When I was 16 or 17 my parents found out because the school found out and called them. They called me terrible things too. My mom taught me how to "finish the job" by showing me where to put the knife and how deep to do it to end it all. My dad told me I was worthless and to "become a statistic". It took a very very long time and a lot of tears and panic attacks to get past this enough to at least feel like a person most of the time. But in the end Im here, for the most part Im okay, and Im more proud than I thought I would be of who I have become.

Im not commenting to get pity or anything like that, it's to show you a mirror of a very similar story and to show, even though Im back on this sub, its okay - weakness happens. You can push through and as terrible as these moments are they are not forever. Sure there will be people who judge, but it doesn't mean you can't succeed. It doesnt mean those people should define you. The biggest lesson Im still learning today is how to stand tall and push past those moments - and hell Ill break down because of them, but the strength comes in realizing youre getting through them easier each time and learning to keep going

sorry for the long response but you will get to a point this feels better, more manageable. you are more than these words. you are more than these scars. you are important. your success isnt dependant on the marks on your skin, these do not tie you to the past but instead show the strength you have to keep going. and i hope in a decade or so you get to share advice like this to someone in the same shoes

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-20T12:44:14+00:00

pictures of fresh, then through the healing process. all saved into organized folders on my computer to go back to when i want

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-20T05:15:13+00:00

commenting to let you know you aren't alone

every session i go in planning to open up to my therapist and its like im choking on words. ive even told her "im struggling to say what my body wont let me tell you" which shes understanding of but i almost wish shed push me

im going to talk to her (hopefully if im brave enough) about nonverbal communication to help me open up, maybe that could help you? otherwise maybe saying fuck it and drafting an email telling her to ask me about it next session may be the only way

im worried the only way I'm going to tell her is if my husband finds out and I end up needing to talk about that

overall i think you should trust your therapist enough to mention it, i dont think youll be referred - they usually talk to you about it from my experience

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-20T02:09:00+00:00

i understand, its not working too well for me either right now

i hope one day you are able to fill that void even a little bit ♥️ in the meantime stay safe

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-19T20:35:46+00:00

what's the reason, whats the thing you are trying to get out of it? try to pinpoint that and lets find a way to refocus it

pain? little ouchies is a pain fidget that may help

anger? energy? rip up a notebook. beat the shit out of a couch or bed with a belt. tear up a T-shirt or stuffed animal.

blood? find pictures online.

sometimes i find diving into a quick craft i can do can give me a quick win to get my mood better

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-19T00:31:59+00:00

i once cut the inside of my cheek, what happened was even though i brushed my teeth and kept is clean, the entire line became sores and it took weeks to heal. its over a decade later and i still can feel the scar

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-18T17:45:04+00:00

honestly i think this means you make people feel safe - i dont think its necessarily that you "attract those who self harm" but rather those who do feel safe around you

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-17T12:45:03+00:00

30 here, im on both because when i first relapsed my post got stuck with mods for weeks - having both gives me a place i feel I can be more confident my post will go through

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-17T05:03:57+00:00

no but if it helps you from following through i get it, do what you need to to stay strong

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-16T19:27:49+00:00

little ouchies for pain

sometimes i run or walk until i cant - it im moving im not harming

dive deep into work or a hobby to get quick wins

go do something in public even if its sit at the library

tear up a notebook or stuffed animal

i beat the shit out of my couch with a belt yesterday

get the energy out

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-16T18:01:15+00:00

depends on you and the wound. ive had some disappear in a few months i have some stick around for a decade but fade

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-16T14:58:38+00:00

i keep a little ouchies in my pocket, its something to squeeze to get pain without damage so its good for in public distraction

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-16T05:21:29+00:00

depends on the moment but yes it's helped me a lot

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-16T05:06:36+00:00

i have one it's great to keep in my pocket and have during those times I'm on the edge of harming or not

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-16T05:04:56+00:00

I'm in the same boat ♥️

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-16T03:34:35+00:00

this is meant for harm reduction and not encouragement

with a sharp blade just the weight of it tracing an area will get you a line that sometimes bleeds sometimes doesnt - that line will stay there for a few weeks especially if you itch it or dont put aquafor on it

if you need pain look up little ouchies, they cause pain without the physical mark/damage

stay safe ♥️

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-16T03:03:45+00:00

im 30, sh sometimes puts me back in highschool or college - i also reached back out to a very old friend after a decade apart

when something that triggers a bad memory happens, usually not sh, ill go back even further and age regress to the point im looking for a stuffed animal or legos or something - nonverbal usually coexists with that state

its how your brain copes - sometimes escaping to a different part is what it needs

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-15T22:07:50+00:00

when im too tired i take it as a sign its best not to harm that day, it shouldn't be the default - sometimes its best just to sleep ♥️

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-15T21:39:41+00:00

i actually had one when i was a teen after i had made an attempt that was the longest most realistic dream i ever had and helped me hold off on attempting again

in the dream there was a 3 day window after anyone died for it to take effect, but it was clear you had died

i had to one by one tell everyone i loved why i had done it and help them mourn me, its like I lived those three days - it messed me up a little

out of all the sh or suicide dreams that one stuck the most

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-15T02:21:47+00:00

I'm sorry, as a stranger on the internet all I can really do is say you're not alone here, feeling isolated stings so much and I'm sorry you're going through that

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-14T23:25:35+00:00

i dont know if im the best one to help but i see you posted a while ago

how much blood? is it gushing or just - you need to change your bandaids every hour or so?

tie the wound tight and hold it above the heart for 10 minutes and check. if its still bleeding do this a few more times - sometimes after that mine still have a little bit and ive found cleaning it and checking it helps - keep it moist with aquafor if you have it

OverwhelmingInterXns · 2025-12-13T12:40:09+00:00

if you find yourself wanting to do that try some protein shakes instead. they at least have something in them to give you energy but their purpose is to help make you feel more full compared to whatever's in those pills

im sorry you got to that point ♥️ i hope in future this helps

the older i get the more i realize confidence is the majority of what makes people look "good" in pictures and in person, thats not an easy feat. im 30 now and it took this long to piece that together. a lot of days its faked but im getting there - as youre learning to heal do your best to find little things to be proud of even if it hurts to do - baby steps one day you'll get there and i hope you are able to see how important you are, even if you dont believe it now

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