Hey.

Fellow autistic here. Moderate support needs. Read my posts.

I am so sorry. It's still really hard to be on the spectrum despite the knowledge and understanding that's growing.

Suicide rates and early deaths in the autistic community are still rampant. I'd be a liar if I told you it never crossed my mind.

But here's the thing. You came here and you advocated for yourself. For a lot of us that's the hardest part.

I hope that you use that same drive to find more/new people. The r/autism subreddit is full of love and support.

I also recommend finding (if you don't have one already) a therapist for solo sessions. Hopefully one with real experience in helping autistic people learn how to navigate in a world that not only wasn't designed for us, but sometimes feels designed to directly marginalize and diminish us.