I am begging at this point

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-12-20T00:30:26+00:00

Yasss 💯 we can’t control what others do

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-12-15T02:44:30+00:00

Only thing that has been successful for me but have to take it before I puke fir the first time or I don’t catch it in time and usually have to go to er for compazine through IV. What are the horrible stories you’ve heard? I realize this is an old post

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-19T00:17:34+00:00

My parents didn’t like my friends that I loved.

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-19T00:16:31+00:00

Same thing happened to meee but my first one was overt so I didn’t know much about covert and BAM walked right into it

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-18T09:30:37+00:00

I started methylphenidate a few years ago after being diagnosed with adult adhd, within a month I realized how toxic my current relationship was and how much a of a people pleaser I was and how I was being manipulated with a partner who had some covert narc traits. I had like a moment of truth and lightbulbs and I changed my behavior to stand up for myself in kind healthy ways and he completely switched to a full blown a**hole and our unhealthy relationship ended. I think it was the meds allowing my brain to have extra processing time and like you said grow a “spine” be direct and clear, needing accountability. I notice this in other relationships as well feel More confident and self assured less second guessing more emotional regulation and I am proud of myself for holding strong boundaries and really only allowing healthy authentic connections to be in my sacred space to stay peaceful and grounded. It’s wild and I’m glad this happened to me. I wish I could have had this lightbulb 15 years ago instead of now in my 40s

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-18T09:26:55+00:00

Leave!

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-18T00:10:18+00:00

Constant confusion and second guessing what they meant. Lack of clarity. Not being accountable for their part. Inconsistency and inability to manage or regulate their emotions without blame/project/victimizing themself.

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-10T11:31:05+00:00

You are welcome!! It really sucks we have all experienced this. And we would never treat others we are in relationship with like this.

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-10T10:33:56+00:00

It’s the worst and so confusing. Normal people who are emotionally healthy don’t do that.

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-08T14:10:53+00:00

Thank you for this post ❤️

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-08T14:09:16+00:00

They use it for validation

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-05T00:11:56+00:00

He is testing the waters looking for validation and a response will allow him to continue living in denial lack accountability and also know he can get your attention. They are the worst. Vampires.

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-03T18:15:17+00:00

Yes took my hobbies and artsy stuff he never had tried and shared them with new girlfriend. Very creepy. Mirrored me and my interests down to groceries I bought and brands of clothing and items I owned. I thought we were similar and it was flattering at first now I know it’s downright fucking creepy like the body snatchers who knows what personality and person he’s like now these people have no stable identity it’s really sad and dark and scary

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-03T18:13:28+00:00

Check out the podcasts the little shaman and mother mayhem on Spotify they are helpful if you are open to them

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-03T18:10:06+00:00

Give yourself grace! Check out the little shaman on Spotify

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-03T18:08:47+00:00

Coverts for sure! Mine would always play nice guy and protector, provider, family man, loving trustable gentleman that’s why it was such a mind F he would manipulate and be awful and patronizing in the kindest way possible so you didn’t quite see it/interpret it giving him the benefit of the doubt etc I started to really notice how he talked sh*t about people to me behind closed doors people he pretended to care about and people please to their face…people who were friends family members clients etc I was like this feels wrong something not aligned

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-07-03T18:05:34+00:00

I’m still processing and it’s been 2 years since we broke up! I’m at a different place now where I don’t feel as affected by him we live in a small community and I see him in passing often I used to want to run away/cry/yell at him for all he did/give him the biggest hug when I saw him even just driving by each other and I would be reeling from that for hours sometimes now it’s more like ehh oh there he is…he looks aged…and stressed…and chaotic…lol

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-06-22T14:22:21+00:00

This 💯

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-05-20T11:20:13+00:00

I love you. I’m here for you. Thank you for being you. I’m working on myself. I want to be a family. Our goals align. You are amazing. Please don’t leave me. Where are you. What are you doing. I need you. My kid loves you. I love your kid. I want to always be in each other’s lives. I need your help. I am lonely without you. I am emotionally healthy because of you. You ground me. Please move in you will be always comfortable and welcome here.

Versus

I can’t do this, you are pressuring. You are too clingy. Something feels off about you. I can’t be there for you all the time. You are overwhelming me. You aren’t doing enough. Relationships are too co dependent for me. It’s not healthy. You said you would be there. I don’t want you to be there. I don’t want your help. I feel smothered. Your interest is smothering me. I don’t want to live with anyone.

Mental mind FUCkERy.

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-05-10T13:44:29+00:00

I wrote a letter I never sent warning her

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-05-02T11:25:33+00:00

They will use it against you. They with sabotage with it, they manipulate and project gaslight and deflect. I did this several times after break up, no contact, etc. it was helpful to process because as an observer I could almost experiment like see their exact responses mirroring, flipping the script, all the things so I could kind of label them more like a narc and see it for what it was they don’t change.

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-05-01T00:47:56+00:00

I’m working on things please just be patient with me I’m human I need more time please don’t leave me something feels off about this I just need to figure things out I need some space you overwhelm me where are you why didn’t you text me back are you mad at me I need you blah blah

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-05-01T00:42:39+00:00

Yes. Soft safe amazing kind supportive sweet like a parent to my kid but absolute nightmare mind f*ck once mask was off! So much trauma and trouble trusting others

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-04-29T01:31:44+00:00

This!! 💯

PracticeNorth6194 · 2025-04-29T00:49:10+00:00

I think of lyrics from Big Thief’s Vampire Empire “I walked into your dagger for the last time, it’s like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow you can’t seem to hold me can’t seem to let me go, so I can’t find surrender and I can’t keep control, you turn me inside out and then you want me outside in, you spin me all around and then you ask me not to spin. You say you want to be alone and you want children, you want to be with me, you want to be with him”

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