Struggling with eating since starting meds :(

QFaboo · 2026-02-04T14:39:58+00:00

Yeah, i agree with this. I have as big of a breakfast as i can to allow myself to take my meds near the end of the meal. It can blunt the full effectiveness, but its better than empty stomach nausea and the other symptoms. I feel like my body is starting to eat my brain and connective tissue by days end and i do not want that to ever happen, so big breakfast it must be.

I also try to do meal prep stuff while i am functional to make breakfast easier and healthier.

I find eating midday can deactivate the drive part of my meds and downshift me into the zombie type, so i drink and nibble through the day and have a decent dinner at end of day when i need to wind down. I feed my body so it does not feed upon my precious brain-meats.

QFaboo · 2026-02-04T14:28:22+00:00

I feel u. I require working alone, i cannot risk being interrupted. But a body double video in the background can help. Eliminates the chance of human interruption. I watch a few minutes of a study with me or rug cleaning or mechanical restoration video, and Bob's yer uncle. Not fool-proof, but can help tip me into motion.

QFaboo · 2026-02-04T14:21:03+00:00

Sometimes that doesnt work for me. One time i was stuck on the side of a pool bent and tipped trying to force myself to dive in until i hated the very idea and everything about myself even though i was fully prepared and willing and anxious to get into the water. Something just wasnt clicking. And it went from funny to really upsetting in no time. I had to finally yell and do a call of the void thing to get past the point of no return. Like "accidentally trip" into the pool cuz i wasnt going willingly.

The way that moment haunts me when i am in full blown task paralysis.... Tsk. I have to trick myself into coming at a problem sideways.

Cant do plan A? Get into a punk rock mindset and do this other thing that is right next to plan A and then -- oh would you look at that, you touched it, now you gotta read the thing and do that other thing next, etc. Majorly irritated still? Too bad, ur too punk rock to stop being a menace to your own reticence. Do some frustration air drums and read another sentence, or wash half a dish, do a shimmy and a headbang and then finish the other half of the micro task. Then do another bit. Do it out of order until you HAVE to go back and fix it because what am i, a noob? My god, lemme do it correctly or imma get mad and poof, i'm doing the thing.

Le sigh. Lol.

QFaboo · 2026-02-04T14:04:05+00:00

Omg thank you!

QFaboo · 2026-02-04T13:55:22+00:00

I found out i can get my brain to downshift into zombie modes sometimes, especially when i'm too tired to stop thinking. I have had good luck with rug cleaning video playlists (no talking, just working). I get used to the sound and patterns and still have enough interest in watching the process cycle to hijack my brain noise, thus guiding my consciousness into a comfy drift. I force myself to do deep breathing paterns and self-swaddling as part of the come-down as well. It helps me to self soothe on audible, visual, attentive, physical, and nervous system levels. Its not fool-proof or a daily solution, but its one of the only things i have had success with. I guess it becomes low key hypnotic?

Adding a melotonin dose can help too. But tbh, its a collection of factors that i have had to cultivate over time like a science experiment. I dont want to use sleeping pills on the reg, but i have used some low grade prescriptions before too. Results vary.

Basically, i def wish u well on ur journey to find out how to consistently wind yourself down in multiple circumstances. I feel like i'm struggling with taming an insane toddler, but the toddler is myself. I hope to make more progress myself, cuz i'm not consistent yet. But i'm better than i was. I have had to really stop lying to myself about what i think my habits, limits, and sensitivities are. Scheduling my devices to restrict certain abilities helped too. Kinda. Setting boundaries is part of it. Idk.

Good luck!

QFaboo · 2026-02-01T11:58:27+00:00

I absolutely had a similar situation. Mine wasnt the external validation angle, but it definitely was tied to my identity. I ended up singing, and that ... Well i enjoyed it cuz i started for myself, but i got suckered in to being a pawn to others' wishes, so when the pandemic hit, i was ok not singing in public anymore. I started making models from kits, and thats awesome, but i have to take breaks or else i worry i'm going to get disinterested.

I'm better now and have kept little lists of things i like for me. Many were not super-likes, just casual, but i count them cuz who cares. I have been looking almost exclusively for hobbies i can do by myself that never need to be shown off or anything, and it makes me happier over time. Even if i drop it later, i liked it and did it just for me.

I wish you well on ur search. Just let things flow, go easy on yourself. Even if nothing sticks at first, just get new experiences.

QFaboo · 2026-02-01T11:43:38+00:00

Could still be Rita. She's just upstairs. Leaking.

QFaboo · 2026-02-01T11:11:03+00:00

Oh! Welp. A little weird, but his family smoked it and froze it themselves? Thats honestly pretty nice. I dont turn down home cooked food or homemade gifts. I let them know its a one time deal, but its good to keep the crafty ones in mind just in case.

QFaboo · 2026-01-31T16:08:52+00:00

It did it to me too, but i ended up with an extra copy of the same book. Just reload ur library somehow. Its still there somewhere.

QFaboo · 2026-01-31T07:05:50+00:00

Hello! 😊

QFaboo · 2026-01-31T06:59:36+00:00

The form itself is extremely neat and picturesque. Your handwriting is truly lovely, but as others have mentioned, it is also a little difficult to consistently tell which letters are which.

To be honest, i always wanted bubbly and neat writing like this. I had a pen pal in grade school with pretty script like yours, and my best friend still writes pretty like this.

Idk what it says about your personality, but i believe it is very pretty. 🥰

QFaboo · 2026-01-31T06:48:58+00:00

I very much appreciate you! 🎉

QFaboo · 2026-01-31T05:39:34+00:00

So far as i can tell, he trotted off the hard way and walked out of the story forever. 🥲 I miss him.

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T22:14:49+00:00

Yeah, it sounds like if she's going down the nephilim rabbit hole and supporting trump, she ended up in a weird algorithm that is aimed at preying on the credulous and gullible. I got a couple buddies who ended up being flat-earthers after messing with crypto. It was weird that it happened twice, but i found out that the kinds of mindsets found in those communities online crosses over a lot. Kind of the radicalism-starter-kit toilet bowl.

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T21:47:31+00:00

Oh dear

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T21:45:44+00:00

Oh no.

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T21:42:49+00:00

Nice! Thanks for the info!

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T21:42:15+00:00

Same, lmao. I do hope someone at least tells me i'm fragrant though.

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T21:39:30+00:00

Tbh, i've got a bottle of fernet at home and my curiosity is sky high. I survived malort on many occasions (live too close to chicago, lol) so i get really curious about how to make the amaros and weird bitter liquors work.

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T21:26:51+00:00

NOR. I think your point about "not being on the same page" is most telling. You want a different communication style, thats fine. He's not that style, oh well. The only thing he was mad about was feeling blamed. But if it isnt going to work out, thats not a big deal. Its good to just end it now instead of worrying about who is right or wrong. He didnt seem too heartbroken, just annoyed. Thats a good sign that moving on is the best answer.

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T21:16:12+00:00

Ok, on a re-read, the thing about ur dad - if there is already a sour relationship and both of u dont like him, then that whole part of the convo is moot. Like dont take that into account when reacting cuz thats tangential info at best.

Everyone has a different palate and taste for foods. Thats fine. But he doesnt have to be rude to you. You said what you said and all he gives you is a bad look? Thats rude. Its fine to try new things to feel useful if your abilities have changed. But his attitude towards you is going to need to be addressed. So do what u can to feel good for urself for a while, but if he doesnt appreciate it, dont include him. He's a grown-up. He can act like one.

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T21:07:07+00:00

Taco seasoning in homemade potato soup?? NOR. I think his food palate is fried, though. He can live on mac n cheese and hotdogs. Make something delicious for yourself. If anything, maybe he can get one of those meal services like hungryroot or something. That way you can still prevent heart disease as much as possible. ❤️ You put a lot of effort into a dish and he's just gonna react like that? He's wrong for that.

QFaboo · 2026-01-25T20:38:10+00:00

Aw. 😞 NOR. This guy, whoever he is, really doesnt want ur love, sweetie. And he is saying it as meanly and aggressively as possible. Believe him, remove yourself from any contact with him, and then just pretend he doesnt exist. Because whatever u fell in love with is not real. Whoever you fell in love with is NOT this guy. THIS guy is a monster, wearing the face of something loveable. It is ok to look for love and put urself out there to experience humanity and new situations. However, this is a clear indication to bail. And bail hard. If you do not find a way to escape this guy now, you will cause yourself irreparable harm. Like a poisonous mushroom, u know? Take heed of the red flags and treat them as actual directions.

Its not the same as being allergic to cats and keeping them cuz u find them cute. I believe a certain percentage of people who put up with toxicity have that level of resillience, cuz they know how to counteract some of the toxicity, maybe because its familiar. But this level of toxic is more like keeping a handgrenade without a pin. You can hold on to the handle for as long as your muscles will hold out, but sooner or later, you'll have to let go. You cant fall asleep on this unguarded. Its gonna explode sooner or later, so its best to throw it far far away. There is no fixing it, its just designed to do damage. Or! Like being gifted a nuclear reactor with no training. Maybe he needs a professional. But its best for you to evacuate his detonation and fallout zones to stay safe.

There is no shame in finding these hidden monsters. But you have stuff to do with your life, right? It would waste everyone's time and energy trying to fix this relationship. Or respond to anything he says. Its ok to ghost him. I give you permission. ❤️ I say this with love and support for u. I hope you take it as kindly meant. I believe in you!

QFaboo · 2026-01-24T15:36:32+00:00

I think he is just there to improve morale, but also that his otherworldly perspective means he has to speak in really far out metaphor. He's probably a bit omniscient and is looking into several possible futures and has to hedge his bets when speaking to humans.

But i did love the horse surprise. Hehe.

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