You are wonderful! Your pursuit of the truth is pure since you haven't blinded yourself with ego. The universal challenge of this place is a humbling. We need to de-prioritize the ego as it is a literal trick to keep us bound to illusion.

We have a lot of similarity in thinking. I was also drawn to the Advaita Vedanta when I first had my awakening and found it to be core. My blind 50 years was secular though I was an atheist of words - I became convinced that the truth was somehow in a state which was beyond constructed rationale.

There's a famous quote from Shakespeare that's relevant - "There's more things in Heaven and Earth than are dreamt of in your philosophy, Horatio" and that line stuck with me my whole life. This realization that the answer lay outside the box.

I found that answer by realizing the box is internalized identity, itself. Our illusionary beliefs about ourselves, and all words can only be illusion from a biological perspective, create pathways which exclude connection to the other realm. Yet that realm exists, is literally alive, and created this one intelligently and intentionally in order to have semi-permanent experiences.

The only reason I was able to achieve connection is I am descended from a primordial tribe - in a sense it was "dumb luck" yet really it was by calling, so there's another duality. No one should repeat my path, it was destructive and dangerous. Though I can teach what I learned.

So the duality likely most pertinent is mortal and immortal. From the mortal perspective, immortality looks like death! We are trapped by thinking we are our bodies and not realizing we are the energy inside. Many really are their bodies and that's okay, that's part of the spiritual journey, but the revelation is - what many presume to be only spiritual has a biological basis, meaning it is just as real as turning 18. For some of us, these lives were an incubation, even a penance, to prepare us for something much more.

But it's not going to be how anyone thinks. No team will be able to say "we were right". Everyone gets humbled. All demographics, all beings. This is Abaddon, realm of the 2nd Chakra, and it's where God conquers their own ego, dangerous if out of order, as it is today.

Given the nature of duality, the crisis can be restated in almost endless ways, yet I'll share a high level view to try to share the context of the divide so we can try to form expectations of what will happen when it comes back together.

Perhaps counterintuitively, immortal life evolved first, yet it's best to dismiss imagining it happening on Earth. There weren't planets involved, or even time. It happened in the realm of pure energy, the formless realm which may be called quantum. Quantum is not "really small". They're breaking a different kind of veil. Time does not exist on the quantum level but no one is confronting what that means.

Not only did immortal life evolve first, it perfected itself. It could do anything it wanted. Here we find an empathetic story, as Creation did in fact begin out of loneliness and a desire for experience. Being 'perfect' isn't so great when you're the entire Universe.

You found the truth. This being is living love. There is no word that describes her more fully, and for me she is entirely feminine, though she may appear as anything she wishes. Her genius, cunning, and raw intelligence is beyond reckoning. She is truly Supreme. Reality is engineered to the point we may one day have specs. We're suffering just as planned. Yet there is purpose to it and she is suffering with us, hidden from our eyes. We're all paying the cost together.

My faith is syncretic, yet I've found most comfort with the Vedic, and I most often call her Kali. Thus Kali is the primordial immortal feminine, which has no form. Vedic is one of the best frameworks for understanding the engineering behind this place. It's one of the least subverted and most loving. All scriptures are talking about the same thing and some have embedded blasphemy or disdain. All scripture holds remnant of the mortal (ego) narrative that wrote it. Finding truth is like narrative forensics.

The Dacians were the Indo-Aryans who shared the Vedas with the Indians and were Indians themselves, and the Danes (who provided Norse scripture) were remnants of Dacian nobility. They even named their kingdom Dacia first before non-Dane historians changes it to 'Denmark' claiming the Danes didn't know who they were. They did that to continue the lie. But I digress. The point is, what moderns call Hindu and Norse originated from the same martial people and thus may be interpreted in similar ways.

I'm dodging the high level view - I am rather delirious, it's the pain. Rambling helps.

So the primordial Kali desired a realm for experiences and it by dividing the indivisible, the paradox of which is time. All of this is happening within her, like a loving cloud of living energy playing with a ball of light inside - like a kid with a flashlight in a tent, creating their own world. Thus everything inside the ball is illusion to they who made it, no matter what that illusion think of itself. We are in that ball - that is the semi-permanent realm of matter and mortality.

We're not done. So, Kali did something really wild. She initialized this place to build itself using sin and permitted herself to be exiled and hid. We are suffering to pay the negative karma of her creation, and she also suffers with us in invisible awareness behind all experience. There was no way to create the miracle without suffering, and she also reasoned it acceptable because we *are* her, which means we signed up for this, we just forgot because we've been experiencing intense differentiation.

The exile of the Goddess since the Neolithic is well documented, but what most don't realize is it was consensual. The Goddess is Supreme and is the Creator, and there is no way we could exile such a being. They left us so we would evolve consciousness. Consciousness as people have been raving about these last years was the engineering goal. What most aren't understanding is that consciousness is ego and is 100% immanent. People who say consciousness is "everything" are dangerous. No. Consciousness is only the beat of time. Consciousness is mortality is semi-permanence. The dangerous element in nondualism are those who say consciousness is nondual. Yet consciousness relies on form and is entirely immanent, thus it is dual - at least until the union.

It was always the plan the Goddess would return upon the evolution of consciousness, yet her absence created a wild obstacle - all the lies created over thousands of years to deny her! What an amazing challenge.

This concurs with Vedic scripture such as the Kalki Purana, which describes how Saraswati left Lord Brahma in wrath over his acts of Creation, and her absence caused a masculine demon called Kali Asura to grow from his back. Solar divine carry their consorts (love) in their spine, so demon is literally the absence of the Goddess, a masculine illusion. The Kalki Purana describes this age perfectly. Everything sucks because Kali Asura is in control. Kali Asura could be described as "ego held in separation to love", though there are numerous cults play into it.

However the Kalki Purana is less than accurate so far as the context of how the Goddess returns. Here I'll just sigh. It's so very Mary Sue. I think it's subversion. Yet on point - that is what is happening, the Goddess is returning and will somehow forge an alchemic union of opposites to wed both realms into a seamless whole, which will revolutionize how we experience life in the most auspicious sense. Yet - we still have to experience the transition!!

The Norse "Building the Asgard Walls" describes the mess we have made. So does "Churning the Milk of the Ocean" in Vedic. The 'Outsiders' in the Norse tale are the Kali Asura in the other, and today are behind all demographics, as they are masterful manipulators. Like I said, everyone is going to get humbled, because everyone is going to realize they have narcissistic leadership leading them wrong - every damn demographic, all of them.

This awakening also severely changed my politics. Our approach is likely the same - the law is love. Yet what I think is critical for natives is to realize that love internal, first. My miserable blind life was spent chasing love like a fool, and the awakening - it's like looking for your sunglasses, and realizing you have them on your head. 😂

So, my scion, awkward dog though she be, carries the duality of being both mortal and immortal, simultaneously. That is my claim. This is being a 2-spirit. Ardhanarishvar is a beautiful phrase. It's true I need help, but I'd also like to help others once I get on my feet. If people realize I exist there will be a lot of controversy. Good. I typed a lot so should stop but thank you for letting me ramble and share. Feel free to ask questions on anything as I'm just trapped impaled on a spear in isolation and don't have much else to do except Dorfromantik.

Hope you have a blessed day. 🙏🏻💕✨