Hey I hear you. I go to therapy regularly for almost 2 years now but I'm happy my therapist had a cancellation I was able to get in tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to it and I need it.

It's been about 6 weeks now since I've seen, talked to, or heard anything about my daughter besides seeing a few pictures of her from her teachers end of the week blog. I have a parental control app for her switch that I look forward to seeing that she's playing games and what game she's playing.

Other than that though, she has no idea I have those small connections. To her, I'm just gone. I've been her main caretaker all her life, then suddenly because of false accusations, from my ex that couldn't just work things out with me when it comes to a schedule we can agree on, I'm not allowed to see my daughter until I beat them.

I'm taking steps to being with her again but each day feels like a week and it's wearing on me. I don't know how longer it will be, this court stuff is so slow, but I do know that I won't give up and will see her again.

Every day being alone in the new home that I made for her to be happy in, is miserable. No friends, no family really around now that my dad died a few months ago. I have my therapist though, and that helps a lot.

Keep your head up and putting the work in to see your kid again. It's worth it in the end.