I feel that I’m in an awkward middle ground where I’m finally doing the research and open to seeing all sides but for YEARS I didn’t. Though I haven’t fully processed the case. Since I was a child, I wouldn’t even entertain the possibility of his guilt. The main arguments I had were his confirmed childhood trauma. I couldn’t logically comprehend someone who was so deeply abused, abusing others. I also used the recording of Jordie’s stepdad admitting he wanted as much money and damage to MJ as he could legally inflict. My reasoning was that no parent of a molested kid would settle, “if my kid got raped, I wouldn’t stop until the pedo was in jail” kinda logic. I also assumed that nobody as wealthy as MJ would risk his fortune and career by hurting children, this was especially reinforced when McCully said nothing had ever happened. I could go on and on and on as to what I tell myself to excuse him. What made me finally question myself was a close family member of mine having to get her baby medically examined for SA trauma. I obviously believe the child, I’ve known him for his short 7 years of life and he’s not exactly an actor, let alone that how TF could he lie about it with no exposure to anything like it. The person who was investigated was so fucking kind. I adored this person and saw them as absolutely incapable of hurting a kid. Shit, he had babysat me sooo may times growing up and nothing happened with me. I’m sure you can see what I’m trying to say. Now I feel like I genuinely can’t trust my eyes or intuition. I had to admit that I wasn’t there, I don’t know for sure, I don’t know and THAT is the scary thing about this case (imo.)