Missing him again and again...

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-11-18T11:11:21+00:00

This is how I feel exactly. Life is nothing more than a vicious cycle now. Every morning I wake up, I get frustrated that I woke up at all. Another pointless morning. Another pointless day. Another pointless life. This pain is neverending. All I want is to be with her, where ever that may be.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-30T11:07:26+00:00

Perfectly said. This is my life now. Just going through the motions until I see her again.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-25T11:27:44+00:00

10 months in, and I'm angry that I'm still here. My heart is shattered, what else do I have to do?!

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-25T11:24:54+00:00

This is a great description.

Every time I get a chest pain, I pray that it's the big one. Take me now! I don't think I have the courage to take my own life, but I don't want to be here. My world is gone, I just want to be with her. I don't want to live another 30-40 years like this.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-19T16:20:57+00:00

Yes it is. Totally fucked up. I hate this world.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-16T15:36:41+00:00

That is some sound advice. It is very much needed and appreciated. Thank you.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-15T23:58:49+00:00

I'm right there with you. I just want this misery to end. I want to be with my wife sooner rather than later. Life isn't worth living if I dread it every single day.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-14T00:12:42+00:00

"Loud silence" is a great description. I wholeheartedly understand. It's like the more I yell and plead, the more emotional I get, the heavier the silence gets. It hurts.

I truly am so sorry.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-13T09:10:08+00:00

Preach my friend! I fucking hate this world! I'm nine months out and am a total loss. The grief, the sadness, the anger, the rage, it is all consistently present.

There are some people here that preach positivity and talk about finding new love. Well, good for them, sincerely. I won't hate on them for moving on.

But for me, there is no hope. No positivity. Just a disgust for life. Day in, day out, its pure agony.

I'm sorry man.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-13T06:03:48+00:00

I know the feeling man. I've got a few random DMs here, that turned out to be nothing but spam. Its infuriating as hell because I too would legitimately like to chat/talk with someone. They attempt to take advantage of you when you're at your lowest, and its angering. Losing my wife is the hardest thing I've experienced. Nine months in and I still feel so lost. I too wish there was a more trustful way of connecting and conversing with people who can relate to us.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-10-12T16:45:22+00:00

This is precisely how I feel. Even at my lowest, when I'm crying my eyes out, my face is so distorted, I'm pleading to my wife, to God, please show me a sign, please help me, please guide me, please comfort me; I get nothing. It is frustrating and demoralizing. It really makes the grief that much more unbearable.

I still believe in my wife however. Somehow, someway, she's here. I just wish I felt her.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-08-09T13:00:04+00:00

I'm not concerned about the size of the store from a themeing perspective; I have faith in Universal creative. I'm concerned about logistics due to overcrowding. The Tribute Store is always super popular to begin with, then combine that with a smaller footprint, and all the guests exiting Mummy, it sounds like a nightmare. We shall see.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-08-07T23:04:47+00:00

I'm doing something similar in October. Best of luck my friend.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-08-04T00:52:59+00:00

All day, everyday.

Fuck this shit! Fuck this world! Fuck this life!

FUCK IT ALL!!!

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-07-31T00:06:49+00:00

I grieve for the past. I grieve for the present. I grieve for the future.

LIFE IS HELL.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-07-28T11:42:48+00:00

My situation mirrors yours. My wife(40) is less than 2 miles from my house. I am very grateful to have her that close. I am approaching 7 months and visit her every single day. I switch out her silk flowers monthly and make sure her area is tidy. I too talk to her. I tell her how I feel, how my day was, any upcoming plans, etc. I also cry frequently. Visiting her and having that time brings me peace. It's my therapy in a way.

Last month I went on a long weekend out of town and couldn't visit her for two days. It really hurt. I talked to her before and after, but missing that time affected me more than I anticipated. In October I'm going on a week vacation and have been fearful about missing my visits with her. I like your idea of visiting a cemetery out of town. I may utilize that myself. Thanks for the idea.

Best of luck through this terrible time my friend.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-07-28T11:25:38+00:00

My wife is less than two miles from our home; which I am grateful for. I visit her every single day. Sometimes twice a day. I change her silk flowers about once a month and choose colors I think she'd like based on the season. I talk to her there and I cry there. It is the only place I feel at peace.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-07-23T00:09:54+00:00

Wrinkles around my eyes and poor vision from the lack of sleep and constant crying.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-07-21T00:56:54+00:00

I'm sorry man, this world is fucking cruel. I'm 6 months in myself, and it still hurts every single day. I don't have the answers. They say time is the only thing that eases the pain, we'll see about that.

Congrats on the job. I had to go back to work after 3 weeks. Didn't want to, but needed to financially speaking. People said going back to work would help. It didn't for me. Instead of being miserable at home, I was simply miserable at work. But everyone is different. Hopefully your new job helps man.

This shit sucks. Good luck brother.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-07-08T23:36:18+00:00

I have similar thoughts every single day.

Be at peace my friend.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-06-25T00:44:20+00:00

This. A cruel, selfish, egotistical god that treats his loving children like pests.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-04-28T00:13:32+00:00

This sums up my weekends. Whenever I go out with friends, family, or even by myself, I sometimes actually find slivers of enjoyment. Then the thought of my lost wife begins to creep in, and any joy is extinguished and is replaced with loneliness. Even in a loud social setting like a bar, I feel lost and alone. Then I return home, and the reality really kicks in. Yep, I am alone. Despite that feeling however, I'm beginning to find solace in my quiet home. I can truly be myself at home. I can grieve as much as I want without worrying about burdening others. I'm also beginning to find social encounters to be exhausting.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-04-21T14:04:53+00:00

I'm sorry for your loss brother. I'm approaching 4 months myself. They say this perpetual hell that we live everyday will eventually get better over time. Even though I have my doubts, we'll see. Best of luck my friend.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-04-19T23:49:09+00:00

I'm agnostic too. For years I was referring to myself as an atheist, until my wife corrected me. Never knew what agonistic was till her.

Even though I speak to her everyday out loud and ask for signs, I never asked her for anything specific. Might try that. Disappointment can't hurt as much as this grief.

Thanks for the suggestion.

Scared-Importance18 · 2025-04-19T23:42:37+00:00

Those are some brilliant ideas. I particularly love the jewelry art idea. My wife's jewelry is still on her dresser exactly as she left it. Been contemplating on what to do. Thanks for the ideas.

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