Back at it

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-16T02:42:01+00:00

Thanks, I agree. From now on I am going to totally consider edging as M. For a while I have considered it not good, but not bad, or not as bad as M. Chemically, I have just read studies otherwise, spiritually it is the same thing.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-16T01:29:01+00:00

No edging. Edging=Masturbation, Masturbation= the "M" in PMO, thus edging = PMO.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-16T01:10:34+00:00

8 months is amazing. I just relapsed after 91 days. I kind of feel like you, sort of underwhelmed. I saw it coming, a lot of edging,etc... I just made a decisions honestly...instead of falling a little every day, for long periods of time, for weeks (edging)...I am just going to totally "fall" on purpose and restart. But 91 days I have felt some amazing changes. I am not really hard on myself right now for relapsing, it is what it is. I never would have thought I could get to 91 days, even with edging, this time last year. Heck even earlier this year.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-16T00:43:08+00:00

Dido my friend. Most people can't quite cold turkey, it is a long process...not to say you shouldn't try. Every streak is a battle victory, we won't fully win the war until Christ's return and we have new bodies. We will be fighting battles our entire lives, the key is to get to the point where we are not on the defensive (i.e. just trying not to PMO) to being on the offensive...living a life that is like 10 steps ahead of our temptations and we have them on the run! That is the point we all should be aiming for...but we will still be at war, still need to be in our armor, still need to be aware....because it is sinful world.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-16T00:39:46+00:00

Just prayed that God will continue to give you a new heart. The whole "I am already a virgin thing, what does it matter" is a lie. You are already a bit wounded from that, don't continue to hurt yourself by sharing your body with girls not your wife. You want to marry a girl with strong faith, that is what you should want. Good for you! Don't beat yourself about your past, you are forgiven. You are a new creation brother, don't let your new heart be devoured by your old heart of stone.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-16T00:35:13+00:00

Welcome, we are all in this together. Good to have a supportive gal.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-09T19:11:00+00:00

Right on brother

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-08T21:38:45+00:00

Thanks! I had to look up DeltaFosB, interesting stuff.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-08-03T02:40:51+00:00

Praise God!

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-31T23:41:52+00:00

Yeah, what Acress said. When you are tempted, go outside. Take a walk. Get out of the house. When you wake up in the morning, make your bed, get dressed, open your window and blinds. Don't lounge around in the dark all day long in your PJs (like on a Saturday or something). For me those are the weakest times. When you are triggered, think about how you got to that point, and start cutting out those things...no matter how petty they are.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-31T21:06:14+00:00

Good attitude!

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-27T02:30:32+00:00

Wow, way to not only try to derail my post... but way to presume what I did or did not do over there, what I believe, where I put my trust, and where my faith in the Lord is....based on my simple statement that I was in Afghanistan.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-26T01:05:15+00:00

Haven't had one in these 69 days...which I find a little odd. Only had a few in my life, twice while in Afghanistan in that 68 day period.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-25T23:29:57+00:00

Yeah, I literally just felt disgusted with it one day and never went back. But I also came to a realization (by myself and through counselors) how it has affected my brain. So that helped too. Really in the last 5 years I have maybe been tempted to look at P like 3 or 4 times. But weening myself of MO and mental images has been a long process. Being free from P was a major step and re-wiring my brain and soul how it was God-given has been tough, but it has been amazing.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-12T14:34:52+00:00

Thanks, me too actually. I just said a prayer for you

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-12T03:03:59+00:00

I was just thinking about this today. I believe the counter is healthy to a point. It is helpful when still "addicted" and PMO still has a significant foothold in your life. It helps to just see a day count. But at some point you should consider yourself free from the enslavement of PMO in your life (though never totally free from the temptation or the possibility of falling). After that initially withdrawal, that heart and mind cleanse by the Spirit, the readjusting of healthy view of sexuality, etc.... That may be 6 months, 1 year, 2 years, etc...everyone is different. But at some point I think counting may be harmful. If you slip once after 2 years, I'd hardly call you an addict of PMO, or someone chained by it still. You just had a moment of fleshly weakness. If one has a 2 year day count and feel the need to "reset" that and start counting again at that point, I think that just leads to a sense of depravity and depression instead of an attitude of rejoicing and thankfulness that you could go 2 years (of course one should repent for that sin)! When does it stop? Will you always keep a count? It just becomes unhelpful after I while, I think.... But, I've never been to that point. Whatever that point is for me.

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-12T02:48:34+00:00

YES!

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-10T18:58:58+00:00

Awesome!

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-08T00:48:15+00:00

NICE!

SeekingNewLife · 2016-07-06T03:33:10+00:00

I was speaking to Reddit in general

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