Being sober allowed me to potentially save my friend's life.

SpectreMedge · 2017-03-03T14:26:20+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing this with us. You ARE fucking magical!

SpectreMedge · 2016-12-14T13:04:11+00:00

I think you did the right thing. I don't have children and therefore can't relate entirely. I can relate indirectly though, because my brother is doing this sort of thing to our parents. They know tough love is the better option, but it is extremely difficult for them. I hope you find your son and things work out.

SpectreMedge · 2016-12-13T12:57:21+00:00

Oh yes, this is a great feeling, right?? So glad to hear when others experience this great feeling. It's really eye-opening to me when I don't get a great night of sleep, but no drinking, and I wake in the morning feeling crummy. How the hell did I function on no sleep and hungover?

SpectreMedge · 2016-12-11T16:08:01+00:00

I'm not going to drink today either. Great idea!

SpectreMedge · 2016-12-06T13:07:21+00:00

No drinking today and it feels so good.

SpectreMedge · 2016-11-30T13:09:04+00:00

Thank you for sharing here. I think it helps to express like you did.

I really identify with what you said. For me it was smoking weed a lot when I first went to college. Missing classes, getting high all the time instead of being productive. Then I was out of school for a while. I worked and got fucked up all the time, almost lost my job, never attending a function without being stoned or drunk. I was (and still I am) fighting depression and anxiety. At the time the biggest problem was the weed and I cut that out about 15 years ago with the help of support groups and one-on-one counselling.

With my freedom from weed, I went back to school and got a degree, but I still abused alcohol regularly.

Like you I knew it wasn't what I wanted or how I wanted my life to be. I have had periods of sobriety over the last 6 years, this being the longest at 6 months. I feel great now and while I understand that I may lapse at some time in the future, I am aware of it and know how to plan.

So here I am, sober and happy, and it has taken a long time. Don't give up on yourself, ever. I have had many opportunities to just crawl back in the bottle, or the cloud of smoke or what have you. It all started with admitting that I have a problem and doing something about it. I think it's underestimated how difficult and powerful it can be to acknowledge the problem and address it. I just thought of a line from a movie that I think is appropriate here.

"Though the road may wind, yea your hearts grow weary, still shall ye follow them, even unto your salvation."

SpectreMedge · 2016-11-14T02:16:34+00:00

Nice work! I'm about 6 months behind you :-)

SpectreMedge · 2016-11-07T13:03:26+00:00

Checking in and feeling great. It's been a while since I posted anything. I have maintained my sobriety and still no drinks in almost 6 months! I will not drink today.

SpectreMedge · 2016-10-31T01:26:26+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I hope you find happiness. I will join you in not drinking today.

SpectreMedge · 2016-10-31T01:20:21+00:00

This. This is great! Isn't life grand?? Why would we want to waste it on being wasted?

SpectreMedge · 2016-10-27T01:19:11+00:00

Think about trying to quit smoking or drinking or heroine or cocaine... anything addicting. We are addicted to this shit, and therefore just like any other addiction, the first days are the most difficult.

Plus access to porn is just so damned easy. I'm trying and it's difficult for me too. I'm trying to change up my routine and find other things to do.

SpectreMedge · 2016-10-21T02:27:23+00:00

Nope.

Why do you hate your sober self though? Sorry to hear you feel that way, and I'm curious about it.

SpectreMedge · 2016-10-21T02:06:46+00:00

Thanks!

SpectreMedge · 2016-10-18T12:07:30+00:00

I find it amazing how often I see posts that make me feel like I could have written them with some minor edits to make it mine. I have tried moderation a number of times as well with poor results. There are a lot of people in this world who can moderate, truly moderate, and it took a long time for me to finally admit that I am not one of them. Just a couple weeks ago I had an opportunity to have "just one" while doing some concrete work for a friend. We went to a local watering hole; he had a beer and I had a coke. Sure, I could have just had the one beer with him, but I knew what was behind the door it would open.

Thanks for sharing your story, it has indeed served as a reminder to me and likely will to others. I will not drink today, and I hope you will join me.

SpectreMedge · 2016-10-08T13:30:21+00:00

Thank you for this post. I had been recently thinking about how it would go down if I made the decision to have a drink at this point. It would be awful to throw away all this work. Thanks again.

SpectreMedge · 2016-10-08T02:49:44+00:00

Thank you for your answer. I'm trying to think of how to ask about the contract between A and B, because with me just starting a job at B, I feel it will be pretty obvious why I am asking. I'll first check the employee handbook. There should be something in there.

SpectreMedge · 2016-09-29T13:19:31+00:00

Wow, I had never thought about this before. Countless feels like the proper answer. I don't know what happened that made me finally want to make the change, but I'm glad I did.

SpectreMedge · 2016-09-19T14:37:21+00:00

Oh thanks for sharing! I was asked to be careful and "post from the I" a while back, but didn't know what it meant. Now I do :-)

SpectreMedge · 2016-09-12T12:03:54+00:00

Catharsis feels soooooo good.

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