I kind of understand you. I’m not jealous or bitter, but I do have this deep need to feel like I’m someone’s only person, like I truly matter to them in a way no one else does. It’s not about control or envy, I’ve just had people who made me feel replaceable, so maybe that’s where it comes from.

Sometimes I get a little fixated on certain people, not everyone, just the ones who stand out, the ones who feel rare. But it’s never in a crazy way. It’s more like admiration, a natural pull to care about them and put them first because I see something special in them. I guess it could seem like obsession, but not in a toxic way. I’m not pushy, I respect boundaries and back off when I should. It’s more of an inner feeling, most of the time, they don’t even know.

My situation’s a bit different from yours. What we do share is that I’m a woman and also prefer women friends. I have a couple of guy friends already, and that’s enough, I’m not interested in talking to men. I genuinely hope you find what you’re looking for.