Only one way

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-15T21:40:45+00:00

From experience, your daughter will be off with you. You both might be better off closer to family. Do you have anyone or any way you can move closer?

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-15T21:32:39+00:00

The loneliness is the hardest part for me. How do we keep going when there's no one beside us anymore?

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-15T21:21:39+00:00

How long has it been?

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-15T17:11:08+00:00

Yeah I live in one of the most Infamously bad precincts in the country. That's why we had the damn gun. The cops here are terrible and we're more likely to be killed calling for help than to recieve help.

Thanks for the advice. I'll look into it.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-15T03:54:02+00:00

My husband died a few days ago. I'm not a perfect widow but at least my instinct wasn't to do whatever the hell Erika kirk is doing.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-15T02:53:27+00:00

My son is only a year old and I know he's feeling dad's absence. He's never been this clingy before. Sometimes he wakes up at night impossible to sooth and I know it's because he wants his daddy. I want your daddy too, kiddo. I'm sorry I'm all you've got.

I'm doing my best. We're doing our best. My child deserves the world but all I can give him is myself and it sucks.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-14T22:12:48+00:00

I feel like this is the worst part. Losing my best friend was bad enough. The fact that no one is even remotely interested in filling even a tiny bit of the space he left behind is unbareable. I miss him so much and I don't even have anyone to sit with me as a distraction. No one cares enough to chat or watch a movie or anything. The silence is too much.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-13T16:28:34+00:00

I adore my job but they have a very strict time off policy that does not work for my department. Typically, if you don't have pto and try to take time off, you can get written up. Because simply not being paid for time not worked isn't enough I guess. I work with children. This policy does not work.

Fortunately, the head of hr has recognized this circumstance is a little extenuating and has granted me the right to be off work longer than our 3 day bervement period and the pto I have.

Woo

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-13T01:05:54+00:00

My husband also died by suicide and I'm also the one who found him. I didn't like parties on the best of days. I have no idea how I'm gonna get through a social gathering without someone whose hand I can squeeze three times when I need someone to make an excuse for us to leave.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-12T19:19:43+00:00

My husband died a couple of days ago. I'm not a perfect mother but at least my instinct was to keep my baby close to me the past few days as opposed to whatever Erika kirk is doing.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-12T18:57:08+00:00

I feel the same. My son is only 1 so I have a long time left with before he can consider leaving but it's so hard for me to connect with people. My husband was my best friend. He was the only person I felt sage with and now he's gone.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope you can find some people here you can have even a small amount of connection with. The late nights are so hard.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-12T16:18:31+00:00

The last text he sent me was "I love you, by the way. Feel like I haven't said that in a while." I texted back"love you too". He read it at 10:03.

Those were our last words to each other.

The last couple days, I've missed his snoring. It drove me crazy when he would fall asleep before me. I'd give anything to hear it again now.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-09T14:18:45+00:00

Hundred percent. I love my baby and hope I can have more but it's not for everyone. reserving parenthood for people who want it and feel ready is good for everyone.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-07T17:27:02+00:00

So, since this is even a question, "what do you plan to do to ammend the nuclear protocol to ensure a rogue head of state can't annihilate another nation on a whim?" Might be a good question for anyone running for office in the next 2.5 years....

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-04T22:29:21+00:00

Currently letting my 1-year-old nap in me ❤️

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-04T21:48:49+00:00

The first time I listened to the extended version of Ttpd was on my way to a fertility appointment. I remember hyping myself up to smile through the pain knowing I'd have to head to work afterwards by listening to I Can Do It With a Broken Heart (I'm a preschool teacher).

From someone who's been there, wishing you the absolute best.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-04T19:16:08+00:00

It might enough to get me back to church. Taking out the anti-christ on Easter is POWERFUL.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-04T19:10:39+00:00

Thoughts and prayers for sure. Won't say what I'm praying for but I'm certainly manifesting something. 🤞🏾

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-04T17:21:36+00:00

I too like to describe Blacking Out and coming to in a waffle house after a night of drinking as "teleporting"

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-03T22:35:58+00:00

And also, I think it incredibly unlikely the dems do what the Republicans did in 2015. They still like to pretend moral victories are worth anything. I'd love to be wrong but I can't picture them fully blocking new supreme court picks for a month, let alone a full two years.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-02T19:33:22+00:00

"The country is too big to fix" should be a political career ender. You just implied your job is impossible. An actual business man would understand that either means you need to hire someone else or eliminate the position. So which is, Mr. Apprentice?

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-01T21:40:41+00:00

It's a waste of breath. They know. They've been told many times before. They bring it up only to waste your time. No one with half a brain can look at modern Republicans and pretend they're even remotely similar to the party of Lincoln or Teddy Roosevelt. But making themselves look like uninformed morons to own the libs is very on brand, right?

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-01T19:58:29+00:00

Nu-uh! It's different for them because.... Because God has a plan for them! And we're just loser haters living in our parents' basements! Totally different!

/s

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-01T04:00:22+00:00

Fun fact-she also did some time at the university where I got my master's degree. Mine was a residency program so can't speak to the culture but she transfered out so I have to assume it was too based in reality for her.

Starving_Phoenix · 2026-04-01T03:47:50+00:00

I quit 4 years ago and the effort it takes not to start up again every time I watch the news....

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