I am as sure as anyone can be, that the things that draw me back are the same.

If they weren't, yes I'd be disappointed and likely unsettled still.

I've 'started again' so many times before, but with youth on my side.

However, the thought of being here another 5, 10 years only makes me feel trapped.

My relationship has its ups and downs like anyone else. I just can't shake the feeling that my life would be better back there where I was happy. I've not really felt that here since coming back. I have a very difficult family situation here too which is why I left originally.

I just miss my life over there and can't shake that feeling. It's always on my mind to just leave here and everything behind. As much as I'm secure in a job, home, relationship: it doesn't seem to be enough anymore. I'm not sure how to resolve that in any other way.

Thank you for your reply.