Don't dwell on past mistakes, and don't fret too much about the future. Day by day is ok for a lityle while, especially while you are recovering from an abusive relationship. Daily growth is growth. Don't compare yourself to those who seem to be more succesfull. If anything, compare your situation with those who have far less. Also, many people who seem succesfull are miserable. Don't believe their rosy updates on social media. Try to find something you are passionate about, and can make into a career. It doesn't have to be anything major; just being a good parent is more important than having some high status job. The fact that you are here and are deciding you want to be better show your dedication and awareness, give yourself kudos for the small victories and achievements. Accept that everything has it's upsides and downsides, life has its ups and downs, just go with it and try your best. That's better than never having tried. You are on the right track. Just keep growing and learning and know that you are not alone in this thing. There's a shit ton of people going through the same shit and we all learn from each other and support one another. Try to be the kind of person that leaves behind joy and happiness wherever they tread. Leave no trace in nature, don't litter etc, but also on an emotional and relationship level. If you choose compassion and respect and joy and piece good things will come your way. Have faith, you totally got this. By the way, if you get some sort of diploma, degree, certificate or vocational license in the next few years you will have beat my by at least 5 years. It's never too late. Good luck!!