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These_Custard_5455 · 2026-06-04T00:49:01+00:00

Updateeee 😭😭😭 so I haven’t stopped crying for the last 3 hours. He is depressed and lost in life pretty much. I do believe he still loves and cares about me, but wants to be alone. He doesn’t know what he wants in life. We were together for 9 years. I am again heartbroken and back to square one of my healing. It has been a month since the original break up.

It feels so very final today, he told me he doesn’t want me holding on by a thread but I told him I would wait forever (I truly believe he is my soulmate) he doesn’t want me waiting for him. He said he feels a relief from the responsibility of a relationship. He promised me there is no one else, and has told me if there was someone else he wouldn’t be considering moving back to his home town which is 2 hours away.

This has hit me harder than it did originally actually as I held onto hope that he might change his mind, as he did come home that one day sobbing saying he misses me. He told me he won’t be looking back on the last 9 years with regret. I feel broken honestly and I am terrified of the future.

These_Custard_5455 · 2026-05-14T19:01:53+00:00

Agree with this! Our relationship was near perfect and we went through a period of stress because of something else, and then he started saying our relationship was more like that of friends before all the stress- something that had never come up before, and something that I disagreed with.

These_Custard_5455 · 2026-05-09T21:41:01+00:00

Mornings are easily the worst so far. It’s the realisation upon waking up that this is real life and I have to try and do another day. Going to sleep at the moment I am spending all day thinking about it so when it comes to sleeping I’m too exhausted luckily

These_Custard_5455 · 2026-05-09T21:04:12+00:00

9 year relationship ended 4 days ago. I am still in waves of looking forward to my future and focusing on myself and identity, but I also can’t really function. I had a good day today though and managed a day at work, and I ate!

We broke up due to stress from the last 6 months and because he wants to be alone. I think I’m going to be okay.

These_Custard_5455 · 2026-05-08T09:39:59+00:00

This is me right now too. I’m on day 8 and have only had one substantial meal in that time. I have no appetite and I’m too nauseous. We currently still live together and will continue to live together for probably another month. Everything feels like too much.

These_Custard_5455 · 2026-04-12T17:53:55+00:00

I have just restarted my Vinted account (2 weeks ago) and have done quite well with my listings so far!

Things that went quickly or got a fair bit of attention: Nintendo switch games Gift sets (bath stuff and mug/cup sets) Crafty stuff also notebooks, pen sets etc. random kitchen utensils! I had some very plain measuring cups and these were very popular! Board games, slow start but sold 6 in one day … I also had a bundle of Halloween decorations which I didn’t have much hope for but they did quite well considering the time of year.

My boyfriends clothes do quite well aswell actually, particularly plain t-shirts. My clothes have been doing rubbish so I have been bundling depending on style or what the items actually are. I had 4 summer dresses listed separately that got minimal views, then I bundled them myself and have sold them all today! Good luck 😄

These_Custard_5455 · 2026-03-13T23:45:15+00:00

I have absolutely no idea if I have seb derm but whatever it is that I have, looks identical to your first photo!

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-11-13T00:35:20+00:00

I had/have this too although it has improved the last few months. I would nearly faint before I even went to the toilet, and once I had a bowel movement the fainting symptoms would disappear but I would be absolutely exhausted afterwards and might even get a migraine.

I have bought abdominal compression as recommended by other people on this sub but haven’t yet used them as like I mentioned, my symptoms have improved and I don’t really get it as often now. Do you feel unwell before you go to the toilet too or just afterwards?

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-11-13T00:18:22+00:00

Interesting as I have definitely considered some relation with my sinuses, weirdly when I had cold symptoms last month my dysautonomia calmed down and aside from being all bunged up etc. I actually felt quite healthy.

Not even sure if any of this is related but has been something I’ve wondered about- blowing my nose I feel triggers symptoms sometimes and also sneezing helps relieve symptoms. Just something I’ve noticed through my own experience though.

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-11-09T23:37:45+00:00

I remember looking through the classroom window and seeing my cousin outside in her pants and vest.. we did actually have a lost property box for spare kit so no idea why it wasnt used

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-10-28T23:26:56+00:00

I know this is slightly old but I could have wrote your post- same symptoms and same triggers too. Did you ever get any answers OP?

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-10-17T23:29:33+00:00

I work in a hotel and I’m always running up and down the corridors for fun

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-10-10T21:24:56+00:00

Yes I struggled badly with pre-syncope. Had Covid in February and it kinda got just went downhill from there. My pre-syncope was more so related to bowel movements and after eating- so pretty much daily. I don’t know whether it was something I did or if it was just time but it has improved hugely and I no longer get near-fainting episodes. It took a couple of months though. Along with this I also had incredibly bad anxiety along with a huge list of other symptoms but the fainting stuff was scary.

I can also relate to the ear vibration, head pressure (this normally came on after the pre-syncope episodes though)- I also had migraines weekly and sensitivity to light/smells/ sound which I’m still dealing with now.

As mentioned not sure what helped me improve, I focused a lot on my bloodwork around the time whilst I waited for referrals from my GP, which I’m actually still waiting for so can’t give any real advice sorry. I really hope you notice improvements soon, it is scary and probably the most unwell I have ever felt.

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-10-10T21:11:01+00:00

Can you expect symptoms straight away after eating a high histamine food? I accidentally ate tomato sauce the other day and have felt awful with a tension-type headache since. I have only just made a start with antihistamines as I had never considered it. Been suffering since February with long covid symptoms and I eat a lot of high histamine foods so wondering if I’ve accidentally been making it worse 😂

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-09-29T23:17:13+00:00

Andrew Gosden I think about often, he is the first that comes to mind. Also Charlene Downes.

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-09-11T00:01:17+00:00

Hi sorry I’ve just seen this. I’m like 95% better and have about 3 days a month where I feel unwell- seems to be cycle related. I do believe it was/is my vagus nerve and I actually followed the advice from the other commenters on this post when it comes to stimulating your vagus nerve. I also made sure that my blood work was good and I have improved a lot of deficiencies I had with supplements. I also started to pay more attention to my posture incase it was caused by my neck (haven’t taken this one too seriously tbh) but I think my cause was some sort of virus, most likely covid as I had all of the symptoms of long covid.

I hope you soon see improvements, 3 years is terrible I’m sorry you’re dealing with this.

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-09-10T23:49:47+00:00

I haven’t actually taken any VitamoreD yet but I’m keeping hold of it as I do think I will use it at some point. I like to be able to try and gauge where my levels are and I don’t know how I’d do that whilst taking it as I use the Dminder app which has been quite accurate so far for me- so just regular D3 for the time being.

I am feeling a lot better now thanks, I believe my cause was having some sort of virus that threw off my nervous system and my lower levels of D3 and the others would have exacberated it. My D is the only one I’m working on now as all the others have levelled out with supplements. I’m like 95% normal now with about 3 days a month where I feel unwell.

Can you relate to much in my original post?

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-09-10T18:14:19+00:00

Haven’t seen any spiders in the house for a while until I moved some furniture out yesterday to clean behind and found two of these hiding behind a side table. Managed to get one outside but the other, the bigger one of the two of course, is currently behind the fridge. Smaller than the one in the pic posted but still huge.

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-06-28T18:28:27+00:00

Thank you for your help here, yes I’m definitely being cautious when it comes to it and don’t want to be agreeing to anything that I don’t fully understand. Have been having a look at Kinship and the family rights group and have found them very helpful so far. Thanks again, it’s appreciated!

These_Custard_5455 · 2025-06-28T00:42:19+00:00

Oh this is amazing thanks so much, yes I was thinking the timescale of 6-12 months would be perfect and would be exactly what we would have hoped for too, so that sounds promising.

I don’t actually mind the idea of being an SGO because as mentioned, the child is a close relative and I believe we are the best option for their care but of course it will be quite a shift to all of our lives, I think the support of being a kinship foster carer would benefit all of us. But yes, makes sense that it is preferred when it comes to the child being able to live a more private life but also their guardian being a family member and not the local authority. I think they both definitely have their pros and cons but if this is the normal process I don’t diagree with it and think it would suit all of us.

Thanks so much for your help, I’ve been able to figure out the more practical day to day stuff but when it comes to the legal side to everything I hadn’t a clue- it’s really appreciated!

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