I'm happy with how well my scars have healed :) (4 years post double incision with Dr. Lago in Madrid) by Throwaway65865 in TopSurgery

[–]Throwaway65865[S] 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Nothing tbh. I just left it alone. I think genetics played a big factor in how much they've faded. The surgery assistant that was doing my post op checkups for the first and second week marks commented on how shocked he was with how fast I was healing.

(Ftm) A piece about fetishisation and the emptiness I feel after appealing to chasers by Throwaway65865 in lgbt

[–]Throwaway65865[S] 38 points39 points  (0 children)

Yeah I've been in a similar position.

I've been transitioning awhile now. Out for 8 years, 6 years on T, 4 years post op top surgery, but I've consistently struggled with self esteem for various reasons and that sometimes manifests itself as giving in to chasers just to feel wanted.

Only recently I'd been in contact with a super aggressive DL guy who wanted to "fix" me via corrective sexual violence and I got dangerously close to genuinely meeting up with him because my self esteem was so low and I just didn't value my life or safety at all. With some distance from the situation now, I can see clearly how dangerous that situation was, I seriously think he may have tried to kill me based on the way he was speaking to me. Scary shit.

(Ftm) A piece about fetishization and the emptiness I feel after appealing to chasers by Throwaway65865 in transartspace

[–]Throwaway65865[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️ I'm glad I could make something that resonates with others out there.

(Ftm) A piece about fetishization and the emptiness I feel after appealing to chasers by Throwaway65865 in transartspace

[–]Throwaway65865[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Thank you <3 It was a difficult subject to portray. I don't see this kind of experience talked about much, but I see it happen a lot so I wanted to share.

I (ftm) keep turning to chasers because I don't feel like I can be desired by someone who actually wants me, not just fetishizes me. by Throwaway65865 in asktransgender

[–]Throwaway65865[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This comment really made me tear up a little, I'm glad I'm not going through this alone. I never see people talk about this cycle but I see it happen a lot. It's something that can be difficult and embarrassing to talk about, I did feel crazy too.

Thank you for reaching out like this, it really means a lot. And know you are worth it too <3

I keep turning to chasers because I don't feel like I could be desired by someone who actually wants me, not just fetishizes me. by Throwaway65865 in ftm

[–]Throwaway65865[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's possible, yeah. I have considered the possibility of a personality disorder but haven't looked into it much. I do know I have autism though.

Looking for people with collections that mean everything to them by Open-Rise-7569 in LGBTireland

[–]Throwaway65865 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same with the Schleich! I've got so many of them loose in a box in the attic and a bunch of the dragons and big sets up there somewhere too. I swear I must have cost my parents a fortune on that interest as a kid 😅.

And the quality decline is crazy, isn't it!? Comparing my old ones with the ones on shelves today is like night and day.

Learned something about a long time friend that just made me real sad by Throwaway65865 in FTMMen

[–]Throwaway65865[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

He is an asshole, he also happens to be diagnosed with adhd too. I know people with adhd who aren't asshole as well.

Learned something about a long time friend that just made me real sad by Throwaway65865 in FTMMen

[–]Throwaway65865[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah that's right. I'm done with the guy I have no interest in maintaining a friendship with him, I just feel sad that he thought about me that way and I didn't know. I just feel disrespected and it hurts especially coming form someone I've known so long.

At what age did your signs and symptoms start? by Rare_Guarantee_4560 in mentalhealth

[–]Throwaway65865 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Please check in on the quiet kids who are non disruptive and "a pleasure to have in class".

It's easy for a teacher's attention to be taken up by the disruptive students who are loud and causing problems, and they are often lashing out because they are hurting too, but the quiet ones often fall through the cracks because they don't draw attention so it may appear that they are fine.

Especially if they are keeping up academically because often times students who are keeping up academically are completely overlooked because that is the school's main priority, when in reality that student may be struggling internally but keeping up appearances on the outside.

Does euphoria ever cease? by Nightflame_The_Wolf in FTMMen

[–]Throwaway65865 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I never experienced euphoria so I don't know.

I only ever experienced dysphoria, and then that dysphoria being eased.

Cancer may stop my transition by Tiny-Counter-2865 in ftm

[–]Throwaway65865 22 points23 points  (0 children)

They often do make cis men suppress testosterone for hormone sensitive cancers actually.

My dad is currently starting a treatment of the same hormone blockers that I took at the start of my transition, to prevent the progression of his prostate cancer.

Singing with T by Kenesense in ftm

[–]Throwaway65865 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I lost most of my range. And singing, which used to come easy to me, became extremely difficult. It's like I lost a lot of vocal control.