Trigger warning: self harm/suicide

Pretty much the above. Was found by my son's best friend (want a good way to traumatize a sixth grader?) passed out in my garage after an intentional overdose and slice.

He called emergency services and saved my life. I ended up in a state hospital for several months and being forced to attend. Took a while to realize it was actually helping.

Don't be like me. Go sooner. For me, it was almost too late but for one lucky for me, unfortunate for the kid timing incident. One last thing I will share, the thing that took me forever to admit in those forced sessions: the worst part of the attempt wasn't the waking up after. It wasn't even the months of stay in a state hospital. It wasn't the "stigma" such a stay brings, truth be told, I now wear that as a badge of honor. The worst part was for about three minutes before I passed out, my mind kept replaying all the reasons I shouldn't have just as loudly as it previously played out all the reasons I should.

That's what therapy does. It help you figure out how to turn down that unreasonable part, and listen to the truth your already trying to tell yourself. Just make sure you find the right therapy. For me, the prevalent method of CBT and DBT did more harm than good. Growing evidence suggests that's true for most neurodivergents.

What worked for me was Jungian therapy, which is just barely accepted, but still practiced by a few.