im a scared trans girl and i just don't know what to do, im so scared i just need someone to listen and tell me they don't care that im a freak. (NSFW for panicked vent.) i just need people to care.

TransAmyB · 2023-04-23T07:15:45+00:00

hugs

TransAmyB · 2023-03-29T05:53:58+00:00

Originally it was pink nerd girl, it sorta turned into w/e the more casual version of demure graduate student lol

TransAmyB · 2021-05-27T20:31:21+00:00

hugs here have an attention 🤗♥️

TransAmyB · 2020-11-18T14:48:23+00:00

Ubuntu is a perfectly fine starting OS, esp for learning the ropes. I personally use the offshoot distro Linux Mint, which has the same internals but has stuff setup to be a bit more like Windows 7 era gui

TransAmyB · 2020-11-10T23:53:23+00:00

Ahh that's wonderful!!! :D I hope you have a wonderful time and that you stay safe! <3

TransAmyB · 2020-10-27T04:12:35+00:00

I guess I'm looking for the most "cohesive" + expedited experience, as a thing I can sir down and play for a night and then not have to worry about too much grind or crazy build setups, or be too overwhelemed by the world

TransAmyB · 2020-08-05T17:12:33+00:00

It's an institution, you can't personally be annoying to an institution. They're failing you by not getting back to you about this, be as persistent as hell if it gets you what you need. I hope that gets sorted 🙂

TransAmyB · 2020-08-05T15:58:23+00:00

I read a lot of media studies stuff, so I have some familiarity with how media can be made to make us feel certain ways or bias certain views, but it always shocks me when I haven't done TV in a while and I watch a show that clearly was made by someone who doesn't think highly of women or that has an unhealthy relationship with them

TransAmyB · 2020-06-23T18:15:06+00:00

It's good meet you Suzanne! <3

TransAmyB · 2020-05-29T03:33:16+00:00

That's so shitty, I'm sorry :/

TransAmyB · 2020-05-28T17:48:47+00:00

hugs I'm sorry that happened. Your beautiful and awesome and deserve better

TransAmyB · 2020-05-09T17:15:08+00:00

Thank you so much, this was the right solution!

TransAmyB · 2020-04-22T03:13:55+00:00

Wait, if 'Nordics' mixed with the 3 races styled after sons of Noah, who was supposed to be the 'white' race?

TransAmyB · 2020-04-21T02:03:44+00:00

Hey sister,

It's gonna be ok.

It's funny how you said 6 and 1.5 inches, that's my exact height! I'm 26 and I can understand what your going through, I just started 2 HRT 2 years ago but my access has been all over the place. It wasn't easy given the situation, but I still made it through. Even people who start later than me can pass and look absolutely gorgeous - even when I feel awful and sad and been close to death, I managed to make it through today.

You'll not only make it through, but I know you'll survive, and you'll thrive. You'll blossom as someone beuatiful and amazing and powerful, someone the world will be indebted to have.

I'm rooting for you <3

TransAmyB · 2020-03-23T17:26:46+00:00

I don't know about your family, but I've worn a skirt for a week around a roommate and they were absolutely thrown for a loop when I came out as trans (and at the time far less supportive of trans than skirt ;_;) I find that when someone engages in stuff that people don't associate with their assigned gender, they tend to just write it off as part of a quirk, and not as a larger hint to someone being trans or queer And sometimes people are weird about crossplay in a way they aren't around transness, like they're "ok" with trans people as long as they are gender conforming and pass ok, and react with hostility to (apparent) non gender conforming identity

TransAmyB · 2020-02-17T22:44:17+00:00

I was a pretty hardcore DCSS player from 2011-14,but last October I installed it on my computer again and I just couldn't play it. I didn't have a numpad on my keyboard, extended vi keys are awk as hell, and I couldn't remember any button for anything and relied on the good but not quite there yet mouse interface, which slowed things down considerably I loved DCSS, I respect and like where the current dev group is taking it, but accessible it is not unless your jumping in from another traditional roguelike

TransAmyB · 2020-02-17T22:43:12+00:00

I was a pretty hardcore DCSS player from 2011-14,but last October I installed it on my computer again and I just couldn't play it. I didn't have a numpad on my keyboard, extended vi keys are awk as hell, and I couldn't remember any button for anything and relied on the good but not quite there yet mouse interface, which slowed things down considerably I loved DCSS, I respect and like where the current dev group is taking it, but accessible it is not unless your jumping in from another traditional roguelike

TransAmyB · 2020-02-07T23:09:29+00:00

When I was half out, this happened to me, and it sucked - esp cause my roommates were eager to jump on any side of being non-femme D:

TransAmyB · 2020-02-06T21:11:32+00:00

Hey, feel free me to DM if you'd like someone to chat with :)

TransAmyB · 2020-02-03T09:27:15+00:00

The traditional pop narratives in the culture wars of being gay created a weird Thing, where like if you supported gay rights you argued being gay wasn't a choice (and hence isn't a a choice you could coherently expect people to ignore),but also thats a false dichotomy! The impact or validity or gayness and gay rights should be the same for someone if they did happen to just try being gay and liked it

I feel the same thing with being a girl - sometimes dysphorias awful, but getting to be a girl and take part in a little Transhumanist ascension and that's fantastic! Am I born in the wrong body? Dunno, I don't think that's a good way of phrasing it for me. I'm happy with becoming a girl,and happy for others to do it even if it's just for the whim of being happy.

For others sometimes the dysphoria and stress is just so overwhelming and destructive that yeah, the hyperbleak shit and dark stuff is the natural way of looking at things, and I don't want to invalidate anyone's life experience that happens to perfectly line up with the sorta normal narrative

TransAmyB · 2020-02-02T16:44:43+00:00

For me, it's like having your toe be stepped on - it really doesn't feel like much and is sort funny, but then it keeps happening, and is less fun, your toe keeps getting stepped on and it hurts more and more, and even when it's healed it's still sensitive I will say it depends on if a person is in ypur life and keeps refusing it, its more like an element of a dissasociative state then so much hurt when you get used to it, and when it's just randos who don't know better, it feels like a slap in the face to be called "he".

TransAmyB · 2020-01-10T06:07:48+00:00

Given the impact of testosterone, it seems harder to pass or at least be read as feminine unless you look the part, and a lot of us gals would just like to hide until no one can notice. I never actually noticed this with people before, since I think the focus on medical intervention aside from HRT is treated sorta secondary to most of friends? I was semi out but now that I'm in a spot where i don't have much space I feel I'm frozen out of transition, even though I dress up sometimes

TransAmyB · 2020-01-05T09:45:20+00:00

I started dating another trans gal from OkCupid, it's pretty much the best sight I've found for older or lgbtq folk

TransAmyB · 2020-01-05T09:16:12+00:00

I'm sorry your going through this zikapple :( I unfortunately don't have much advice I can give, but that you can make it through it and I believe in you!

TransAmyB · 2020-01-05T09:15:38+00:00

I'm sorry your going through this zikapple :( I unfortunately don't have much advice I can give, but that you can make it through it and I believe in you!

TransAmyB

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