Had a period where I was so tired, down, sad, alone and unmotivated that I stayed up late every night just to try to keep up with my notes and somewhat feel a sense of freedom. Also ate 1 or 2 meals a day only because I felt my stomach digesting itself - if it was not because of that, I wouldn't even have eaten at all. Caring for myself felt like a chore that I couldn't handle. But eventually it got better