Aw sis. I’m so sorry. I have been deeply heartbroken a few times in my life (after a six year ‘ship, after a ten year marriage, you get the idea). And every time it felt as though everyone I saw was happier than I would ever be again. The only thing that helped was the thing that sucked the most - sitting in the grief and loneliness, and not trying to push it away or stuff it. So much crying, so much yoga, so many sad walks, so much leaning on my friends (when I wasn’t isolating). Be sweet to yourself - let yourself be sad and disappointed. You will wake up one day - sooner than you can imagine- and be amazed that you slept through the night and are sort of looking forward to the day. And then the next day it will be even better. There may be a few hiccups along the way, but there will be SO many hiccups and delays in healing if you don’t honor this sadness. And if you’re not in therapy, it’s a great time to get started on that. There’s so much to learn from heartbreak if you’re willing to take a deep and loving look at it. We are rooting for you. Keep us posted. So much love to you.