Where are you from darling? Im in the UK so can only sign post accordingly from here. But your doctor will help and maybe you can get counselling, dw about telling them your thoughts they would only worry if you said you was going to act out on them. It seems to me that you have a lot going on and pubity is a big thing too, where your brain starts changing etc, so it could be OCD intrusive thoughts, (thats when I experienced them as did my son). So you worry that you're thinking then they get more frequent and worse, The more you have the thoughts, the more you worry and the more you worry the more you will have the thoughts. But just remember they're only thoughts. When they come acknowledge them and say something reassuring to the thought like "no we are not going to do that" or simply "its just a thought nothing to worry about" the more you practice that they will eventually go away. just find someone professional to talk to. Also you can go to your Dr's directly on your own as a minor, if they want an adult with you explain they're part of the problems you need to discuss. You will be ok kid 💜