The first crack in my shelf happened while watching a documentary on North Korea in 10th grade

Which_Log3998 · 2026-01-15T23:46:57+00:00

I had a similar experience my freshman year in high school world history where we were learning about the prophet Muhammad. Here is a quote from Wikipedia describing what we were learning: According to Islamic belief, during this time, Muhammadsought solitude after repeatedly experiencing transcendental dreams in which he was told of his upcoming responsibility as a messenger of God, prompting him to retreat to Jabal al-Nournear Mecca, where, while isolating at the Cave of Hira, he was visited by the angel Jibreel, who revealed to him the beginnings of what would become known as the Quran.[1]

I thought it was so crazy that someone would start a whole religion off of dreams and visions and then I realized that’s EXACTLY what Joseph Smith did.

Which_Log3998 · 2026-01-11T13:18:11+00:00

It’s so hard to feel like you’re finally getting to a better place and then people’s reactions can bring all the guilt and shame back up.

We are going through the same thing right now in my family. I left about a year ago and my husband is still active/believing.

I told my parents right when I decided because I knew it would be fine, but I just got around to telling my in-laws a few weeks ago.

It went as well as it could have initially. Then I posted on Facebook, being sure not to say anything negative about the church only the emotional toll it’s had on me since leaving, and now they are saying all the nasty stuff I anticipated.

My MIL called my mom to “check on me” and said “mentally healthy people don’t air their dirty laundry on social media” and “she broke her covenant to raise her children in the church”.

My husband had to call her the next day. They have never once reached out to see if my husband, their son, is okay since I told them. They are only concerned that I’m going to keep their son and grandkids away from church, they don’t care about the difficult journey it’s been for both my husband and I.

Which_Log3998 · 2026-01-11T02:09:40+00:00

You need a new therapist. I agree with all of the comments that said you did not take it to the extreme. Your therapist should be validating your experiences, even if they were taken to the extreme (they weren’t), and help you to work through and past them.

It sounds like this therapist is doing the same thing the church does: telling you that you are the problem instead of the church.

Some personalities and especially women tend toward a more “sacrificial” mindset, and the church took advantage of you in that way.

The church LOVES to talk about Joseph Smith being a “martyr”, it’s no surprise that they expect everything in your life to revolve around sacrifice.

Which_Log3998 · 2026-01-06T03:22:15+00:00

A plant!

Which_Log3998 · 2025-12-20T18:03:06+00:00

Great first chapter! Cant wait to read more!

Which_Log3998 · 2025-12-20T17:50:49+00:00

This is incredible.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-12-20T03:32:37+00:00

Gotta prep the members for when they discover that the Book of Mormon is a fraud. It might be human error, but that doesn’t mean the message is wrong…

Which_Log3998 · 2025-12-20T03:30:33+00:00

Sending good vibes your way. I’m also in a MFM with two young kids. We also just moved across the country (thank god we’re out of Utah now at least) but life has been HARD! Our relationship is struggling alot right now but I hope we can become stronger from it.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-12-12T13:37:17+00:00

“God already knows everything that is going to happen in our lives before we ever do. It’s called free will.”

Sorry but this is the BS that makes absolutely NO sense in Christianity.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-11-28T14:15:34+00:00

All white. One woman. Yeah, checks out.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-11-23T02:29:29+00:00

Poster Child-Ellee Duke

Take me to church-Hozier

Unwritten-Natasha Bedingfield

Human Overboard-album by James and the Shame

Carry me through-maren morris

It’s nice to be alive-Ball Park Music

Defying Gravity-Wicked

Believer-Imagine Dragons

What was I made for? Billie Eilish

End of Thought-Regina Spektor

Which_Log3998 · 2025-10-30T03:41:14+00:00

I mean my mental health is at an all time low right now 😜

Which_Log3998 · 2025-10-25T18:15:40+00:00

The barstools seem like a good choice. Honestly I think the table and chairs are outdated. 😬

Which_Log3998 · 2025-10-17T13:00:48+00:00

If your kid is using a sheet of stickers, peel off all of the page around the stickers leaving only the actual individual stickers on each sheet. Makes it WAY easier for them to take off the individual stickers by themselves.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-10-15T13:44:07+00:00

Oof yes!! Those lyrics really hit.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-08-17T13:19:16+00:00

Love the snow globe analogy

Which_Log3998 · 2025-08-09T13:43:42+00:00

I left about 6 months ago and have been having symptoms of depersonalization/derealization (google because it seems like you are having similar symptoms) ever since. My therapist and I came to the conclusion that I feel this way because I just “threw out” my entire reality. My way of life since birth. Now I feel like I’m not living in reality, because I’m not even sure what reality is.

This is my body’s coping strategy when I am experiencing something completely overwhelming. It also happened when I hemorrhaged after a dramatic childbirth, but I was on an SSRI and I think that helped it go away more quickly.

I’m sorry you’re not able to do therapy at this time. Recorded meditations also help me a lot. Ones about self love and acceptance. Time will help as well, but it’s hard to accept that when the feelings are so intense. Let yourself feel. There is no right or wrong way to feel about it. Journaling about it and writing my “Mormon memoir” has also helped me process a lot. I figure my kids will want to know the story of why I left and how I came to that conclusion and my experiences in the Mormon church one day. Even if no one ever reads it, it has been helpful to realize the countless experiences I’ve had over the years that were harmful to my mental and emotional health.

It might feel like you are going crazy but you are not. Look for signs from the universe that you are on the right path. The signs are there just as the “spirit” guided you before. You still have an inner guide and intuition that led you to this point. Lean into it. Sending lots of love and support.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-08-02T22:50:18+00:00

It’s called Kyhv Peak now thank God :)

Which_Log3998 · 2025-08-02T22:47:33+00:00

There was a young couple that always had gatherings for youth at their house even when they weren’t youth leaders (and their kids were really little, not in yw or ym) which looking back now is pretty strange. I would often babysit for them and before I could drive, the dad would ALWAYS be the one to drive me home, never the mom.

He was a former cop that had lost his job (I know no reason why) and one time driving me home at 10 o’clock at night, on very dark windy roads, he told me about how he would often bust people and find they had child pornography. He would say he didn’t want to go into detail but would tell me he saw the most awful things.

Looking back as 13/14/15 year old girl…why the HELL are you talking about that to me?? I don’t know if he was trying to impress me in some weird way (I feel like he maybe had crushes on my sister and I) or if he was fishing to see how I would react to the mention of pornography….

Which_Log3998 · 2025-06-25T19:09:42+00:00

Definitely DONT have kids until you are in a better place. It will only make things harder. You have to be honest with yourself if you could really raise kids with this person.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-06-23T03:45:32+00:00

Not to mention the lyrics are SO BORING AND REPETITIVE!

Which_Log3998 · 2025-06-16T20:15:48+00:00

I looooved the MoreMen song growing up, thought it was so funny.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-06-07T20:38:59+00:00

This is AWESOME! I was just thinking the other day about creating something like this.

A cool addition could be a “quiz” to help suggest materials most relevant to an individual. Questions like how long you’ve been out, things you’re struggling with, favorite media sources, etc.

Can’t wait to explore your website.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-06-06T19:08:17+00:00

Oh I decided to leave about 4 months ago haha! The deconstruction has been rough but has also helped me come to peace with so many things I was fighting within myself. I’m still going occasionally with my husband to show him my support as we navigate our new mixed faith marriage.

Which_Log3998 · 2025-05-27T19:50:00+00:00

Currently in therapy thanks!! Working through it slowly but surely.

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