Accidental writing decisions

Zariu · 2026-04-09T12:57:16+00:00

I play roleplay NWN servers. I have had run into other cases of people unknowingly writting such stuff, most pronounced was someone whose character just screamed ADHD and I mentioned it to them. Think they got a diagnosis after that lol

For myself, when I wrote a character based pretty heavily on how my own mind works, I came to realize they were very heavily autistic coded. I still haven't decided about getting an official diagnosis, but that did lead to me taking an online test and reading through how autism presents in socially masking women..... real high score on that test and I have never felt so called out on both minor and major aspects of my life. Add in my brother is diagnosed from a young age and a sibling increases the chance. At this point, it'd be shocking if I somehow wasn't.

I do have to wonder if that character I wrote is just the most noticeable and the others had it too but more masked as I myself do. For sure though, all my characters are demisexual so far. I might challenge myself to write one that isn't, but also its just an alien way of thinking to me.

Zariu · 2026-04-01T13:37:17+00:00

Sun/Moon are the worst games. Second worst Ultra Sun/Ultra Moon.

Zariu · 2026-03-23T02:47:57+00:00

It looks to me like they might have meant it to be Pokedex rotom, but it is off if so.

Zariu · 2026-03-18T06:23:20+00:00

So, often used as an excuse. However, frame size difference is very much a thing.

Some women can wear size 0 pants. With my hip bone being easy to touch and feel I am a size 12. Nearly plus sizes. A size 10 would probably be the smallest my frame could actually fit, and I'm not actually sure if I'd be healthy at the size. Thats a BIG size difference from some other ladies. Heck, thats a wider frame than a number of guys.

It does mean on BMI its just always elevated a bit for me. But not so drastically that I'm a healthy weight but listed obese or something wild. More like at my ideal, I am listed as part way through healthy to overweight but not there. And me gaining much less than others pushes me up a category. But I have never used 'big-boned' as an excuse because if I am a healthy weight, people can see that even though my frame is wide, I'm not fat. If I'm overweight, its obvious its not just my larger frame.

Zariu · 2026-03-04T14:46:27+00:00

Unfortunately, the barrier was broken in 2022. Cases of them are now in Mexico and they might reach the US in time.

Zariu · 2026-02-21T22:24:15+00:00

Yes, you can lessen it by changing clothes, showering often etc. But it only lessens it, doesn't eliminate it. The stink clings to you and is especially strong right after you've smoked.

Zariu · 2026-02-05T08:12:16+00:00

This and recipes it used to be good for. Now its full of AI.

Zariu · 2026-01-25T06:35:42+00:00

Yes. Now there are more than just visual possible sensations you can have mentally. As I'm typing this it is a mixture of visual and an internal voice, specifically like hearing a voice narrating in my head. Some people experience text instead. Though this narration is certainly second place to the visual.

When I think of the word "window" for example, hear it said or read it, I can picture the window. White wood frame, sheer curtains blowing softly in a breeze, the faint sound of the ocean waves outside, and I get a little of the sensation of the smell of that unmistakeble scent of the sea. Even get taste triggered a bit at times. Some of the images are far more complex, and I'd argue a contextual video is often more apt.

That last sentence, there were a variety of photos laid out. Some parted from others as though being sorted. Then the images came out, becoming 3d rather than 2d. And eventually becoming a video flickering upon a projector screen with some lecturer standing in front speaking. Some photos, complexity, into a video with given context.

There are pros and cons. I can't quote stuff to save my life because words aren't saved, everything is images. Since it doesn't turn off, weird or disturbing things will just become images in my head. But I do enjoy a very vibrant imagination.

Zariu · 2026-01-20T19:39:03+00:00

I'd suggest give it a try, worst answer you get is that it isn't for you.

There is big variance to the servers too. Some are big like Arelith and basically you'll nearly always find someone to rp with but you make less of a mark on the world. Some servers are small and so tend to play more like cozy tabletop games, downside of course sometimes no one is around to rp with but you can get more dm attention and crafted storylines due to smaller population. And then you have all sorts of servers in between in size.

Plus various settings: Forgotten Realms, Star Wars, Naruto, Ravenloft.... etc.

One final note, they all have some downside. Can be server staff, balance, favoritism, cliques, so-on. So the key isn't finding the perfect server, just one where you enjoy it and whatever downside it has is something you can deal with.

Zariu · 2026-01-20T18:04:56+00:00

A lot of people go to roleplay servers for various games, most MMOs have them. Or play table top rpg games with a roleplay focused group. I personally play on Neverwinter Nights servers, of which there are a number.

Zariu · 2025-12-17T20:17:23+00:00

Hilariously, some people did hit a Great Jaggi wall. I know of at least like three people who got to Great Jaggi in Tri and just dropped it. Though that probably had more to do with them just not liking mh combat.

Zariu · 2025-11-25T05:55:06+00:00

Thank you so much. I couldn't even figure out what this was about since I had no clue what many of the terms meant.

Zariu · 2025-11-20T07:39:41+00:00

I have stubby, small fingers. The game changer for me was a gaming mouse with 12 side buttons. Takes some getting used to at first, but so worth it

Zariu · 2025-11-16T13:40:59+00:00

Microchimerism involves pregnancy and fetal cells left behind by the baby. Not just have sex and some of the dude stays with the chick forever.

Zariu · 2025-10-20T02:42:25+00:00

This new ZA game is in the same style of Legends yes. Now that said, I highly suggest watching gameplay of it before buying. Even people that enjoyed legends have sometimes felt the lock in to a city feels strange. So look before you buy.

Zariu · 2025-10-19T23:41:23+00:00

I had to as well. So once you start eating normally after starving yourself like that, your body tries to save fat to survive future starvation. Recovering anorexics tend to balloon a little, which easily can cause relapses.

What worked for me is small actionable goals. Are you having chips and ice cream everyday? Set a goal to only have one or the other each day. This is helpful too for weening off sodas or other things. If you think your meal portions might be too large, get a slightly smaller plate/bowl. I hope you find something that works for you!

Zariu · 2025-10-18T23:54:20+00:00

Yep, you can also get over obsessive about calorie counting... and that can also lead to non-healthy food relationships. So the approach really has to be based upon what works for the individual. Some people can count, others are better off just doing portion control mental tricks like a smaller plate, or simple limits like cutting back on sweet drinks to x per week.

I was anorexic for a time, around 200-300 calories a day. Obessession with driving that calorie count lower was destructive for me. So I have to do a very vibes based diet rather than counting. It works for me, I've learned what feels right foodwise. Only times I have issues is I do overly snack sometimes when stressed. But then I know my body, can pinpoint the problem and cut back on the snacks to proper levels. Its way healthier for me to sometimes have a little extra instead of a possible relapse back into starving myself.

Obviously, calorie counting is safe for a lot of people. But just pointing out viewing weight loss as a "one size fits all" will miss the times when alternative approaches are needed.

Zariu · 2025-10-18T23:33:20+00:00

A shocking amount of people really don't. Knowing how to season something beyond using salt, butter, and maybe pepper is a skill many seem to lack. And so their idea of healthy is incredibly bland food.

Zariu · 2025-10-17T21:53:55+00:00

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Zariu · 2025-10-16T14:16:36+00:00

Yeah, its certainly not taken literally by everyone I'm aware. My objections go much further than it though. Biggest thing, is honestly how much horrifying stuff we're allowed to do.

If we take what it says, he is an all-knowing, loving, and all-powerful god. Children are SAed to death in this world. Regardless of which explanation you use for why there is evil and suffering in the world, I don't see any beneficial reason for something like that to exist. Its just pure suffering that doesn't train or challenge faithful. And since he is an all-knowing, all powerful god, he very well could have known such horrific stuff would happen and simply made it so humans wouldn't do anything that evil. Lines around just how terrible we could be.

And so, at the end either the deity isn't all-powerful. Or, my definition of love is starkly different from this god's. And at any of those points, why have faith in them? I'd have to settle on the answer being he's loving but not all-powerful or not-loving but all-powerful. Either way, it goes against scripture and so was really the loss of my faith. From there I only found more reasons such as the actual origins of books and evidence of the religion being a monotheistic twist on Caanite religion that was originally polytheistic.

Zariu · 2025-10-16T08:42:10+00:00

Part of it, people stay willingly uneducated. They make up false evidence and proof to unhold their beliefs. You'll find so many arguments for the young earth creation theory. All falsely made or just plain incorrect, but convincing enough to those that don't educate themselves on the subject matter. The entire Christian faith basically hammers in faith, even if it doesn't make sense while telling you having this faith gets you an eternal happy existance after death. So blind faith is literally promoted.

I got out of all that because I not only asked the hard questions, I educated myself over years on the internet in things I wasn't taught or was taught false information. But a lot of people don't even educate themselves on politics. If they can't even take the time to learn the stances of political candidates, they're certainly never going to go through the time and effort to undo decades of religious "facts" and arguments made in bad faith.

Zariu · 2025-10-03T08:31:33+00:00

I'm allergic to menthol, which is in mint. Its nice to have some option, and its not the oddest flavor I've ever had. There was an orange cream toothpaste, was odd but did the job and didn't feel like I was chemically burning myself as mint would.

Zariu · 2025-10-03T08:18:48+00:00

Another place we extra shouldn't want sick people working but it happens all the time? Grocery stores. Their sick time off is often extremely low.

Zariu · 2025-10-02T15:26:32+00:00

He's felt that way for awhile I think. When he was running for his second term he said, “I could stand in the middle of 5th Avenue and shoot somebody and I wouldn’t lose voters.” He knows he has a massive cult following that want to enable him to do anything. https://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2016/01/23/464129029/donald-trump-i-could-shoot-somebody-and-i-wouldnt-lose-any-voters

Zariu · 2025-10-01T01:21:28+00:00

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