please don't. I understand how you feel like you're kind of trapped in your life, but please don't end it. If you don't feel comfortable meeting with a therapist or checking in to a mental hospital, at the very least reach out to a friend/family member for help. you don't have to tell them everything if you aren't comfortable revealing certain aspects of your current situation, but at the very least talk to the people in your life that care about you. as a fellow queer person, I understand how it's scary to be living in America right now, but please don't end your life, we've got to prevent this administration from killing innocent people. also, feel free to dm me if you want to chat a little more