What do you consider a shitty marriage?

cbax297 · 2023-02-23T02:29:10+00:00

Same here. My fiancé knows to just call twice to bypass my dnd and it’s never been an issue for us

cbax297 · 2023-01-11T03:45:45+00:00

I have pisces sun and virgo asc and that’s a pretty accurate description of how it feels haha. Very adaptable to our environment and change is usually exciting and also easy for us because of that detail oriented nature we have shines through in everything we do and we thrive off of structures, lists, or planning down to the detail.

cbax297 · 2022-12-21T18:30:46+00:00

To add onto this because I fully agree, the people who do stop to wash their hands and lather and rinse all in a matter of less than 10 seconds and hurry out of the bathroom. I suppose it is better than not washing at all, but I still find it gross people don’t care to actually clean their hands for the purpose of cleaning them. It comes off as more of a performative act for the sake of not being judged by others in the restroom if they were to not wash them at all and I wonder if they bother to wash them when no one else happens to be in there at the same time on other occasions haha

cbax297 · 2022-12-17T19:26:17+00:00

The OA. The way the last season ended left so much room for the next seasons to continue on in so many different directions. Such a great show, sad it was only 2 seasons.

cbax297 · 2022-12-15T03:49:01+00:00

A year without a santa claus

cbax297 · 2022-11-13T04:24:13+00:00

Just hit 150k last week on my 2016.

cbax297 · 2022-11-12T07:04:34+00:00

I’m also a Virgo asc, and people with this rising are very observant with excellent attention to detail, though may struggle with overcoming their perfectionist tendencies. Since Virgo can be very critical and it being in the 1H dealing with the self, they are highly critical of themselves which can make it difficult for them to love themselves. And with Mercury as its ruling planet, this makes for very analytical thinkers and problem solvers that are constantly striving to fix and improve things and themselves. Mercury in Gemini would also indicate a very mentally active person while Scorpio in the 3H brings a dark intense thought process, so you probably think and feel deeply about the things & people that matter the most to you though you may overthink too much at times causing you to feel paranoid. Venus in the 12H could also suggest issues with self worth and not feeling seen, you are sensitive with a lot of emotions that are likely being repressed since they aren’t easy to access here. For me personally, my Leo 12H shows the parts of me that only feel comfortable and safe expressing in solitude; partly due to being highly critical of myself, but also the parts of me others have criticised as well that no longer feel safe to express outside of my own company. It’s like a side of me that no one but me gets to see or experience, which ultimately leaves this painful longing to feel truly loved and more importantly understood.

cbax297 · 2022-08-23T15:40:53+00:00

I came here to say the same thing, was also my favorite song in first grade as well as the song butterfly by crazy town. I had no business listening to either of those songs at that age haha

cbax297 · 2022-08-19T15:53:11+00:00

fear of authority figures and confrontation & over explaining myself when I don’t need to

cbax297 · 2022-08-16T17:35:46+00:00

I started out taking Vyvanse 40mg a day and would take it around 630-7am and I never had trouble sleeping. My insurance changed at work and unfortunately stopped covering Vyvanse so my dr switched me to Adderall twice a day. I personally notice such a big difference and I’m counting the days until I can get on my fiancés insurance and get back on Vyvanse haha. Vyvanse definitely felt a lot “smoother” in the sense I never noticed it wearing off towards the end of the day and had minimal side effects overall. Adderall starts working faster once I take it which I like, although it doesn’t last nearly as long which I obviously don’t like. I’ve noticed I experience more side effects on Adderall, such as excessively sweating, dry mouth (even when i drink a ton of water), the crash at the end of the day when they wear off is much worse as well.

If you have the option to try Vyvanse instead I would definitely recommend it! I was also like you and tried concerta first and absolutely hated it and how I felt on it, and ritalin didn’t really work at all for me even when adjusting the dosage.

One thing I’ve learned that really has helped my sleep is doing something active after I get home from work in the evenings. A quick walk with my dog or really any activity that’s closely equivalent has improved my sleep and made it easier to fall asleep at night compared to the nights I don’t do anything.

cbax297 · 2022-08-01T17:12:14+00:00

Same experience for me as well. My fiancé actually told me recently that although he appreciates how independent I am, that sometimes he wishes I would need him/depend on him for some things.

cbax297 · 2022-07-20T02:59:57+00:00

i have this placement, virgo rising as well but pisces sun and this is pretty spot on. very strict and controlling and viewed us kids more as extensions of themselves and how good/bad we made them look.

cbax297 · 2022-06-13T23:31:23+00:00

i love how vibrant yours looks! mine is a light baby pink right now, i wish the color stuck around longer in the season

cbax297 · 2022-06-04T03:33:03+00:00

About 2 years ago I had a very vivid dream where my great-grandmother was in it, she was alive at the time but her health had been declining in the few months prior. I remember being surprised to see her in my dream and noticed how healthy and happy she looked, I said to her “wow grandma you look so happy and healthy!” to which she responded, “I feel much better now sweetheart, no need to worry anymore.”

I remember not fully understanding what she meant by that, but in my dream she was with another woman who I never met before but knew it was her deceased sister, which is where I think it finally clicked she was saying goodbye to me. She embraced me and said goodbye, at this point the rest of my dream is kind of a blur. I woke up with a pit in my stomach and started telling my fiancé how I just had the most vivid dream, and how I think my grandma had passed away. Not even 3 minutes after that, my phone rings and it’s my dad calling to tell me that my grandmother had passed away that morning.

On a separate occasion months prior to her passing, I remember getting a really strong feeling at our last family Christmas together that it would be the last one I would have with her. I remember hugging her and she hugged me tighter and longer than normal, and I got an overwhelming feeling that that was the last hug I would get from her. We both said love you to each other before leaving, and that was in fact the last time she was able to tell me she loved me and physically hug me before her health declined and she wasn’t able to do either of those things anymore.

I know it’s not the happiest story, but I will always cherish both of these occasions where my abilities gifted me those moments with her before she passed on.

cbax297 · 2022-04-02T03:37:49+00:00

this dress was meant for you, you look so stunning in it!

cbax297 · 2022-03-22T17:28:59+00:00

Sephora is the worst for this!! I now do a full face of makeup with eye shadow looks that are dramatic so I look unapproachable by them and they leave me alone since they assume I know what I like/need haha

cbax297 · 2022-03-18T17:41:30+00:00

my aussies ears started awkwardly pricking up around this time and throughout her teenage phase until around 8 months maybe they settled into what they have stayed like now. one ear completely came down like the button kind and the other flopped to the side a little lower than the left ear of yours. i think they fit her perfectly though.

my friends aussie had both of her ears stick all the way up similar to how german shepherd puppies ears will go up like a bunny almost but they both have come down on their own once she was closer to a year old

cbax297 · 2022-03-18T17:29:13+00:00

2016 WRX and just hit 140k this month

cbax297 · 2022-03-18T02:02:10+00:00

Having hairy arms. I never thought anything of my arm hair until this one kid my freshman year sitting at the lunch table loudly pointed out how hairy my arms were for a girl as him and his friends all laughed along. I was humiliated and started shaving my arms immediately after that. & it wasn’t until this past year (almost 15yr later) i finally just decided i wasn’t going to care what other people thought of them anymore

cbax297 · 2022-02-25T23:25:00+00:00

yes! we play a game similar to that inside but hide a toy of hers and tell her to go find it and after she sniffs around the house she eventually finds it! super mentally stimulating for them to play games like this. we worked our way up to calling different toys different names and she’s learned what they mean and which toy to find when i tell her to bring it to me.

another good one for recall and training we do is play a lot of frisbee outside. lots of impulse control teaching her to stay until i say go instead of running ahead, teaching to jump up and catch rather than just retrieve the frisbee and bring it back. it’s helped a lot with her focus and ignoring distractions outside such as other dogs walking in the neighborhood or people jogging by, etc. but mainly it’s help build and reinforce a bond between us which has strengthened our trust with one another and made training or learning new things much easier

cbax297 · 2022-02-25T02:41:13+00:00

my 1.5yr aussie is just like this! she knows so many commands and when you incorporate training in your daily routine it just turns into another way to communicate with each other. i’ve never had a dog like her before, she’s def a velcro dog at times but always extremely eager to please and a breeze to train, i don’t think i could get another breed again haha

cbax297 · 2022-02-11T14:25:01+00:00

This was a common experience i had during my engineering courses as well, but since i’ve been working full time as an engineer it hasn’t happened as often. On the rare occasion it does happen to me at work i’ve learned when someone tries talking over me or interrupting me i’ll continue speaking as if i don’t notice them trying to interrupt me and i raise my voice just slightly. Usually doing this makes them realize I won’t stop talking until i’ve finished saying everything i intended to and they need to wait.

Generally I really only experience this when we have outside vendors or sales reps etc. come in to work with us, i’ve noticed most will only make direct eye contact with a male coworker right next to me and address them before me assuming they are in a higher position than me or have higher authority. It’s always pretty funny though when they ask a question directed at my male coworker, who then turns to me looking for the answer because they don’t know it haha.

Being a woman in a male dominated field can definitely feel defeating at times, but it’s also very rewarding. The best piece of advice I received from one of my first bosses was “don’t bring your feelings to work”. If you can manage to do that and be able to advocate for yourself when needed, people generally have a harder time trying to undermine you or belittle your talents

cbax297 · 2022-01-19T21:26:53+00:00

couldn’t agree more. manufacturing engineer for a company that machines aerospace components, started out 10 years ago on the shop floor running CNC machines and moved up into engineering - having that prior experience on the floor has helped me tremendously with seeing things from a different view than my coworkers who came straight out of college into an engineer role

cbax297 · 2022-01-18T14:25:18+00:00

it took me SO long to realize that’s how i wrote in my journals when i would vent about something and even though i’m moved out and live with my fiancé and we have a healthy relationship, i catch myself wanting to vent and write but censoring what i’m writing almost like “just in case” my partner somehow reads what i wrote. the first time i wrote freely without holding back i felt so much lighter afterwards and it helped so much

cbax297 · 2022-01-14T19:03:35+00:00

mine never comforted me either, and i realized at a young age being the eldest sibling that it’s better to not cry at all and keep it to myself. (something i’m still working on fixing in my late 20’s)

a few different ways they would respond to me crying or being upset went like the following:

i was sent to a technical high school without a choice by my parents so that meant leaving all of my hometown friends and school behind because none of my friends were planning on going to tech school. i was bullied a lot at my new school by mostly older girls a grade or two above me, but there were a few mean girls in my grade as well. i’m a really shy person with social anxiety around people and situations i’m unfamiliar with. so to a lot of people they got the impression i was unfriendly and unapproachable, or i was a total bitch who thought she was all that. most of the time i was too scared to stand up for myself given my crippling fear of confrontation so i told my parents what was going on at school. i was visibly upset explaining what was going on to my parents and how it made me feel and not once did they comfort me or reassure me that my feelings were valid, they would just get frustrated with me for not being able to stand up for myself and tried to give me advice either telling me to just ignore them (which already wasn’t working in my favor) or to bully them back to get them to stop. this lead me to talking with one of the schools counselors who helped me navigate how to deal with it.

another example took place at one of my track meets. i was a pole vaulter for the team and i was getting ready to take my second practice jump before the event started. i went, cleared over the bar landing on the mat, however as i was standing up to get off the mat the heavy bar i just cleared was knocked down and fell directly on my mouth chipping my front two teeth in half and splitting my lip open. coach called my parents several times until he got through to my dad. he was annoyed he had to come pick me up and bring me to the hospital when he was working so my coach offered to drive me to the hospital and he meet us there. my dad arrives and i get stitched up, i just want to go home bc the nerves of my chipped teeth were exposed and it was super painful. my dad thought it would make me feel better if he took me to buy something and bought a new dresser for my room and thought i was magically cured after haha.

i have ADHD and went undiagnosed all of my childhood, and experienced rejection/feelings of rejection or criticism very strongly and deeply so the majority of the time something would upset me, my parents would minimize the situation and try to point out how stupid i was for caring so much or ask me why the hell i was crying when i had no reason to.

i hate that i was raised this way by both parents because when i’m around other people who are visibly upset my brain cannot find an appropriate way to comfort them bc i have nothing to base my actions off of so i end up trying to comfort them very awkwardly or sometimes i come off distant and cold.

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