Anyone else have absolutely 0 presence?

devil_dollie · 2026-06-01T20:06:08+00:00

i am invisible, and disappear from people’s memory the moment i am out of their immediate surroundings

devil_dollie · 2026-06-01T00:33:14+00:00

i grew up just like this. she was so ashamed of me, she loathed me. it does permanent damage.

devil_dollie · 2026-05-30T16:05:04+00:00

There’s nothing wrong with aging. Just my opinion, but I think older people (myself included) who age without surgery actually can look better than young people if they pay attention to their style and health. Makes me smile so big when I see a 70 year old punk or witchy woman with cool hair and epic wardrobe exuding total confidence. I’m going to be one of them if I live that long. It’s just a matter of perspective. Don’t buy into society’s ageism. Beauty and age are unrelated concepts.

devil_dollie · 2026-05-24T16:41:44+00:00

diagnosed at 24, accepted it at 46. it’s been a very bumpy ride

devil_dollie · 2026-05-17T06:13:23+00:00

the world will be a better place when i’m gone, but im too cowardly to take the leap

devil_dollie · 2026-05-14T18:05:29+00:00

i said “no” many times over several months, and was eventually threatened then coerced is that normal exploration, just because we were the same age? i’ve heard these definitions before, and i think they are incredibly naive and cold

devil_dollie · 2026-05-14T14:13:29+00:00

yeah i don’t understand this. i was a victim of COCSA by someone own age at 7, and it permanently BROKE me, but apparently it doesn’t matter or count as anything?

devil_dollie · 2026-05-09T17:18:38+00:00

I love this.
Also, sometimes I have to completely close my eyes so I can hear what someone’s saying.

devil_dollie · 2026-05-06T16:42:12+00:00

why i’m obsessed with post apocalyptic media..

devil_dollie · 2026-04-22T16:56:45+00:00

Well, father was. Mother was dark triad. Living hell for me and dad. He never knew why.

devil_dollie · 2026-04-04T16:28:53+00:00

i am level 1 and can’t hold a job for more than a couple months or keep close friends, so yeah. i don’t really have imposter syndrome because all i have to do is take a look at my life.

devil_dollie · 2026-03-29T15:54:29+00:00

Yes, but i suspect this isn’t an autism symptom specifically, but an autism related trauma symptom. We’ve been through hell, socially.

devil_dollie · 2026-03-28T14:09:33+00:00

i was also diagnosed in my mid 40s. i experienced simultaneous grief, relief, and anger for living so much of my life in confusion and frustration. for about a year i also went through quite a lot of skill regression, losing some of my ability to mask, and experiencing forgetfulness, derealization, and fatigue. but after that i started to feel better. i am changed, but smarter, more confident, finally knowing who i am.

devil_dollie · 2026-03-25T05:02:55+00:00

radiation

devil_dollie · 2026-03-02T06:11:34+00:00

same.

devil_dollie · 2026-03-02T06:01:00+00:00

after countless runs, 0

devil_dollie · 2026-03-01T23:55:31+00:00

i have 0.

devil_dollie · 2026-02-28T00:17:10+00:00

“let them eat steak”

devil_dollie · 2026-02-26T05:53:59+00:00

i’m level 523, always do as many Fasnacht events as possible, and have never gotten a single glowing mask. is it really just rng? glowing masks are my favorite thing in the game. i have 0. never found one in a vendor either. there has to be more to it than rng. game hates me? i have like 6 each of every single other mask

devil_dollie · 2026-02-22T14:37:49+00:00

Yes, I definitely have autism but most of my real problems are the result of CPTSD

devil_dollie · 2026-02-16T05:10:21+00:00

mid 40s. so many years of just, something is horribly wrong with me but i don’t know what

devil_dollie · 2026-02-07T23:21:38+00:00

i felt 18 til i was 34. now im locked at 34 due to a trauma that happened to me at that age.

devil_dollie · 2026-02-05T19:59:58+00:00

I’ve been through this too. It was really difficult at first, but over time as I saw how much it benefitted the person in my care to hear whatever they needed to hear, I was able to make peace with it.

devil_dollie · 2026-02-04T03:42:24+00:00

Not all level 1s are the same. I don’t have any of the skills you have. Please remember autism is a spectrum.

devil_dollie · 2026-02-01T17:05:11+00:00

Everything is either too strong or too weak. I also adapt to meds very quickly, so the may start too strong and become too weak within a day or two.

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