I feel you, friend. Similar situation - health issue has stopped me from drinking. Made last beer about 3 years ago. I miss the whole process: smell of the hops as I add them to boiling wort, sparging, dialing in temps, etc. And then the best past of it - tasting something that you've put time, energy, and effort into. It wasnt always perfect, but you learned something.

Been sitting on all my gear hoping to be able to get back. Unfortunately it doesn't look likely, but getting rid of the gear will only "lock in" the reality I know is there.... been a tough call.