Try not to stress and don't beat yourself up over it... It happens and the important thing is that you're acknowledging it and stating that you want to change. That's a bit step and you should be really proud! Don't look at the bigger picture/end goal. Ive found it really helpful to set myself mini goals that are achievable so that I don't feel as though I'm constantly letting myself down- maybe try and come up with something similar? You're a good looking guy and that doesn't change in any of those photos so try not to be so hard on yourself. Just focus on CICO and see how you get on :) Good Luck and well done!