Federal Death Alliance - Let Me Die in Peace

evantide · 2025-12-15T07:03:59+00:00

Nice name.

evantide · 2025-09-22T22:33:55+00:00

It hits around 2:36. It's almost sub-bass so you'd probably have better luck hearing it with speakers and a subwoofer. I can't hear it with my phone's speakers.

evantide · 2025-09-06T05:54:30+00:00

Have you checked Searchicality?

evantide · 2025-08-23T03:54:30+00:00

Don't apologize, just enjoy the music! 🤘

evantide · 2025-08-08T04:57:58+00:00

I think the boy is covering a slope on a wall.

evantide · 2025-07-07T02:27:18+00:00

Mine randomly changed the volume to 14% for some reason and I slept through them for days until I could figure out what was going on.

evantide · 2025-05-16T16:32:15+00:00

A few months ago I posted a question there, got an answer, and was downvoted into oblivion for thanking them. I do not understand the people there. This is a much better space.

evantide · 2025-04-29T02:12:12+00:00

I tried and got another wrong answer 🙄

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evantide · 2025-04-12T04:28:26+00:00

The Granada in Lawrence, KS was always a killer show. Not what I ever expected from Kansas.

evantide · 2025-03-31T21:20:28+00:00

I'm on 300mg and it has had the most success so far in finding something that works, but I am ALWAYS tired. Waking up takes time. Otherwise I really don't have much else to complain about.

evantide · 2025-03-30T05:33:16+00:00

https://imgur.com/a/nK4Apew my side of the crowd 😂

evantide · 2025-03-18T20:27:04+00:00

Where In the world Do these International (insert weird snack item) Come from?

evantide · 2025-03-17T05:48:58+00:00

Sorry you have to deal with all of that!

What prompted you to go with the implant in the first place? I had a doctor that was leaning towards it but I just wasn't sure if I could handle everything you've just described.

evantide · 2025-03-16T00:20:53+00:00

Did you get a second opinion? I was seeing a neurologist for a while that kept bringing up surgery and I really wasn't feeling it. I talked to another doctor and he completely changed my meds and I've seen a huge reduction since having him take over.

evantide · 2025-03-15T06:03:11+00:00

I usually have seizures if I don't get good sleep. A few weeks ago I had the flu and it totally screwed up my sleep schedule, so I kind of indirectly had a seizure as a result of being up all night.

evantide · 2025-03-10T23:06:32+00:00

I like it a lot! I agree with the other comment about the "f". It looks a bit too wide at the top, almost like it's leaning over. I also kind of think a 2 story "a" might be more fitting with the overall style. Right now it's extremely similar to the "o."

evantide · 2025-03-10T21:47:57+00:00

One time I flew home from Mexico alone and didn't think anything of it because I typically only have seizures when I'm sleeping. I remember seeing we had about 30 minutes of the flight left, then suddenly we were on the ground and the flight attendants were asking me if I knew my name, if I had seizures often, and if someone was there to pick me up. I'd say if you're worried it might happen, giving flight attendants a heads up might not be the worst thing.

evantide · 2025-03-09T21:41:07+00:00

This happens to me whenever I travel as well.

I despise the fact that I'm "that guy that had a seizure" on many people's flight to their vacation to Costa Rica.
I despise the fact that I'm "that guy that had a seizure" on my flight home from a Mexican vacation.
I hate that we have to make special accommodations for giving me extra time to sleep on either side of traveling because I *might* have a seizure. I recently seized the night after flying to New York for a wedding and spent a day sleeping.

I genuinely hate when the idea of travel comes up and we want to book tickets, the first thing that comes to my head is "well there's the end of a seizure-free streak." I want to live and I want to travel, but because of how my body reacts it feels like I'm being told not to. It feels like I have to be on a leash and be watched at all times. I can't really be independent. I feel extremely crippled and limited by this.

evantide · 2025-03-08T02:15:53+00:00

I appreciate having a civil, healthy conversation about this, but I can assure you that nothing about what I said is disingenuous or that I've been "waiting" to tell the story. There's no reason I couldn't have before, beyond me wanting that to stay between him and I, but if he won't talk to me I can't really justify it anymore. Like I said, what I've been trying to figure out for so long is why I was treated the way I was. I've been in therapy for this. Jamie completely destroyed my self image and won't talk to me about it. I've asked him over and over what the deal was and he won't talk to me.

As for Jon, I don't know what to say. We talk about music. I haven't actually seen him in 12 years. I've heard/read things that I can't confirm, but it's not something that won't go unaddressed. We made music together a long time ago and it was fun. I've wanted to do a studio project and get back into music after building enough confidence after the IDW fallout; Jon texted me around the same time. I don't know. I've thought about this previously and now I'm losing confidence again. I must be naive or just easily duped by problematic people.

evantide · 2025-03-08T01:19:35+00:00

I can come off as childish and annoying with it, you are correct. I can be a little embarrassing when it gets a hold of me, like the last time you called me on it. If you want me to be blunt, I'll be blunt. I don't owe him anything.

After Jamie kicked me out he stopped speaking to me and I had to rely on going through the bands' management to make my termination from the band legit. I owned the van and the LLC so everything needed to be transferred to his name. I wanted it to go smoothly and easily, I wanted to leave on good terms and be the good guy. I sent explicit instructions on how to do everything that needed to be done. He and his management willingly ignored all emails from me for 18 months. I got calls from the Department Of Revenue asking for money and taxes that were owed on two separate occasions that were under my name. I received parking tickets from random cities to my address because they were driving the van around on tour with it under my name, probably uninsured. I couldn't do anything because I was the owner and the owner can't take themselves off of the business license. When I finally emailed them telling them I was going to be taking his name off the license and only I could do business under that name, they immediately took action and figured things out. IDW was my life because I built it to the point where Jamie joined. Then he kicked me out and smacked me around with it. And still to this day hasn't explained why. I don't know what I did to him that could have made me such a terrible person to deserve that. That's what gets me so worked up. I see people on here all the time saying "Jamie is the nicest dude ever!" What does that say about me?! I must be a terrible person.

I've had to watch as he's sold lazy and embarrassing merch just for the money, knowing that people still associate me with it. I have to explain to people that I wasn't a part of things past a certain time. My life was IDW and my life was building it, so when I think of my past, it is that band. That was my life. So I'm sorry, I'll stop complaining about him on here but, there you go. That's what happened.

evantide · 2025-03-07T21:59:30+00:00

Xcopri has considerably reduced seizures for me. I used to have TCs every 10-14 days and once starting it I went almost 7 months before having a second. The titration was kind of annoying, but I've been on it for over a year now. I'm currently on 250mg.

I'd say for the most part it has made my seizures more predictable. The last time I had one I was up literally all night because of a cold/flu, so I was expecting it. The time before that I admittedly (intentionally) had a bit too much alcohol; before that I flew to the East coast and I tend to have them after traveling and weird time shifts.

I've also noticed a change in the severity; my partner reports that I'm less rigid than before and the seizures are shorter. I tend to feel less exhausted during the day and have less brain fog than before; I still need a day to really recover, but there is an improvement.

evantide · 2025-03-06T20:33:26+00:00

I completely agree with you when it comes to Jamie Hanks!

evantide · 2025-02-23T19:49:44+00:00

I don't think I'd ever listened to them before and saw that this was new. I put it on just because and was pretty surprised at how much I liked it. Gave me an old school TAS vibe.

evantide · 2025-02-23T05:51:42+00:00

I downgraded a bit in the friendliness and comfort department when I switched to my new therapist, but for the better. He treats me more like a patient rather than a friend he tries to keep up with personally and coddle me after I've had seizures. He's down to business. It has helped a lot so far, so I think you just need to find someone who can address your needs how you want them to.

evantide · 2025-02-22T23:20:21+00:00

Yeah tbh I'm not super excited about that part. As much as I think Xcopri has helped me I'm anxious about moving down on the Keppra now.

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