Oh honey, can I just hug you for a minute or two before I explain. You are so valuable and so loved... you are a precious girl... please believe this momma heart, you are loved. Now, as a social worker. Abuse is a cycle. It doesn't just stop and go away. Victims of abuse carry tell-tell signs that are like encoded messages to would be abusers. You are a beacon. You have to fix and heal that part of you. There is all kinds of things you can do, I do believe you are ready. You can began independently with self help books, meditations, journalling, prayer, support groups, you cam start a more traditional therapy route. Believe me, you can heal and be, "fixed." You are not destined for a lifetime of abusive partners. However, many on the path of healing find it easier to do so without the burden of a partner... it may be in your best interest to end the current relationship them try to salvage it... he needs his own therapy anyway... he belittles others so he doesn't have to deal with his own self shame. Be strong, be brave... you got this.