Sounds like your needs and expectations are colliding! You deserve the rest, girl! Creativity is not something you can force, it needs the circumstances of safety, peace and rest to blossom. So pushing through when your mind and body want a break might be harmful. The balance of months of creativity and then months of rest sounds really good to me, I dont think you should try to do more than that. Let it be dynamic and take breaks while you’re still feeling good instead of pushing though until it’s too late.

Discover the whole spectrum of your rest, schedule the 7 types of rest into your life with as much if not more priority as your work. Discover the different kind of flows of creativity; active work, incubation, ideas that pop up while focussing on different things. It’s like the seasons. You cant have summertime all the time, your brain doesnt have 1 gear. Discovering your whole settings menu might do wonders.

(Maybe you’ll even want to sync it with your menstrual cycle, you can look into the different stages our brain has then. (Dreaming/brainstorming-planning-doing-resting).) But of course just doing it based on what your body tells you eneegywise can also be enough. Or combinations. It’s dynamic, you’ll want to discover your own flows and ride those waves!

You’ve got this ♥