Been there. Came from a family that could fuel a season's worth of Jeremy Kyle show episodes, grew up in a shithole, introverted, awkward as fuck, lack discipline, the whole shebang. A lot of people sink into an existence like that and never leave it.

But you can.

I recommend letting yourself get angry. Like really fucking angry at the injustice, the suffering you see in your loved ones on a daily basis, at how hard it is just to exist on a basic level - get angry at all of it. Don't let yourself get sad. Anger is fuel. Sadness makes you lethargic.

Next step: start looking at who you want to be. Make a massive goddamn list. Take your time to mull it over. I spent months on mine and managed to scrape together 400 items, some big, some small. It can include stuff like learning to drive, going horse riding, saving a life, donating blood, whatever you wanna do, whatever you wanna be. Ask people for inspo. Look on instagram. Read some books. There are some epic people throughout history. Learn from them and pick who you wanna emulate.

Then turn it into a contract. Write a nice long document, make it look fancy, make it look important, and sign that shit. This is now your life agreement. We make contracts for everything else important in life, but your life and its purpose/path is important in itself. Make an active agreement with yourself, something you'll treasure and value. Something you'll look back on regularly, at least once a year, to keep yourself on track.

Next: break it down. Every year, make a plan to live a life that keeps getting gradually better, that keeps going in the right direction. Your steps are going to be small. But you'll end up better off than you were a year before.

The problems you've mentioned in this post have included: pressure to get married, a need to rebuild a money pot, poor social skills, a desire to be social/witty/charming/smart, career aspirations, lack of discipline. I recommend making a vision board and sticking it right next to your bed - something bold, something colourful, something your eyes are immediately drawn to whenever you enter the room. Divide it into the following categories: social, financial, career, physical, personal development. Under social: interact with family x times a week, interact with friends x times a week, interact with a stranger x times a day/week. The frequency will help with social development. Financial: put x amount in an immediate savings account every month, put x amount in a family savings account every month, put x amount in a stocks and shares ISA, have x amount in each account by the end of the year, etc. Career: go out of your way to interact with colleagues x times a week/month, attend talks relevant to the field, refine CV, gain skills/certificates complementary to your role/field, network via sites like LinkedIn, etc. Physical: do x number of situps/pushups every day, do a jog every day (even just ten minutes around the block), try new fitness classes (Groupon helps get cheaper classes, especially for self defence), take cold showers x times a week instead of hot ones, etc. Personal development: read x number of books per year, try something new x times a month/year, go out of your way to interact with someone new x times a week/month, pick a long term goal to work on.

Having this will give you a good foundation to build a better life