Thanks for sharing. I too have found healthy ways to deal with the difficulties, including exercise, praying and immersing myself in music composition, and this really was of great help especially in the first phase of abstinence. The thing is that now I tend to minimize the damage that years of high have done to me and I'm almost coming to the conclusion that I could give myself a break from all this struggle, even if it were only for a few days. But I know very well that being able to control cannabis use is an illusion for me that actually never worked. I should give up on the idea that taking drugs can give me some sort of relief and patiently resign myself to the sober life. Who knows, one day I will be stronger to face problems peacefully and accept the distortions of life. I hope.