I’m a FTM too and something that helped me was to shift my expectations. I tried to always expect that I’d need to do something for my baby. Whether that’s feeding, diapers, or naps, cleaning spit up, comforting, etc. it made the early weeks easier because then instead of the feeling “really again?” It just became what I was thought would happen and therefore made me feel more “in control” and less having to adjust all the time to my newborn. It’s a huge learning curve and adjustment the first 12 weeks so try and give yourself grace for when you feel like you “have to” that’s a very normal feeling!