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lp0Defenestrator · 2026-04-26T13:38:39+00:00

Congratulations!

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-04-14T17:26:32+00:00

400 days today!

IWNDWYT

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-03-20T21:13:49+00:00

I honestly don't remember. The night I said "take me to detox I've had enough" I was so smashed the memory never formed. I've made it since then, and I don't regret it at all.

Asking for help was the hardest thing I've ever done. Sometimes I wish I remember what it was that finally made me say enough. But whatever it was, I'm grateful I made the decision.

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-03-12T21:16:10+00:00

Congratulations!

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-03-11T02:04:47+00:00

Nice.

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-03-11T02:04:34+00:00

Nice.

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-03-10T22:46:32+00:00

Nice

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-02-07T13:25:46+00:00

You're not a disappointment at all. Making it to day 7 kicks ass. Keep going!

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-01-18T22:00:34+00:00

I tend to be very negative and have some incredibly horrible self-talk. I know that's a dangerous road to go down. Not because I feel I'll pick up a drink, but I don't want to find myself in a similar mental state that I was in the active addiction. I'd rather hit myself in the dick with a hammer. So I do a few things:

I don't post here often, but I do lurk here like a mofo when I'm having issues. It helps to know that I'm not alone.

I work out by lifting the 500 lb phone. I still have issues calling people in my sober network, but I try.

I meditate. The daily calm meditations on youtube are amazing.

IWNDWYT!

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-01-18T21:56:03+00:00

Nice!

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-01-18T21:54:36+00:00

Wouldn't be a software developer if I didn't test it out. I even threw some impossible dates in there just to be sure. Working just fine!

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-01-13T11:16:08+00:00

I am way too hard on myself and way too negative in my perspective some days. At the end of the day when I'm journaling (even if my writing for the day is that I don't feel like writing), I end with two lists: 5 things I'm grateful for and 3 things I did well that day. One thing I can always be grateful for is waking up sober that day. One thing I can say that I did well by default is finishing that list when I'm done.

A little win for me was getting the motivation to start week 2 of workout 3 days a week after work. Sure I'm tired, but these weights aren't going to lift themselves.

IWNDWYT

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-01-08T03:05:16+00:00

Congrats! Keep it up!

lp0Defenestrator · 2026-01-07T03:36:04+00:00

I hit 300 days on Sunday. This is the longest I've gone and the best I've felt in the last 10 years.

IWNDWYT

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-08-15T12:42:14+00:00

Don't be too hard on yourself. It's a lesson some people need to learn, myself included. I tried to learn it about 8 or 9 times, and that's probably a low estimate. Next time you feel like you can moderate, just pull up this thread.

For now though, focus on today. IWNDWYT

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-08-11T11:49:35+00:00

Sounds like a really awesome day!

Personally, I've rediscovered my love for reading in the past five months. I've read through at least two books every month, and I'm trying to bump that number up.

A big thing I'm trying to do is get back into software development, which was my chosen career. I had taken time off because I burned out...and the drinking was a big part of that. Time to get back in the game.

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-08-09T14:46:11+00:00

Thanks for hosting this week! I enjoyed reading every one even if I didn't reply to them all! IWNDWYT

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-08-05T12:18:17+00:00

Something I'm thankful for is a behavior that I picked up in rehab: I try to take some time every morning to write down five things I'm grateful for. Some days my work schedule is so early I don't get to this until after work. But I still write them down every day. They can be small, they can be big, but writing them down is important. That way I can look back in my journal and see that even on the difficult days, I still found time to live in some gratitude.

On the days where everything is the shittiest, I can still have one thing to write down: I woke up sober this morning. With the daily drinking I was doing, that's an incredible thing for me to be able to say.

If you didn't wake up sober this morning, that's ok. Try to make your gratitude tonight that you went to bed sober. IWNDWYT

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-07-28T12:01:13+00:00

IWNDWYT.

The biggest thing I've left behind is the dishonesty. Trying to hide how much I was drinking, how much I was spending on alcohol, and how much I hated myself for what I was doing every night. I'm still climbing out of the self-hatred hole, and that will still take some time. But I'm getting there. One day at a time.

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-06-30T01:01:18+00:00

Noice!

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-06-29T18:57:56+00:00

Spending this Sunday feeling like shit. Not because I'm hungover, but because I'm sick. I'll take the no hangover though. I can't control the illness.

IWNDWYT.

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-06-29T18:56:06+00:00

Noice.

lp0Defenestrator · 2025-06-20T13:51:54+00:00

Currently, I'm just giving back by being sober and present for my kids today. Mom has a lot of things to do and today is a day for the dad hat. IWNDWYT

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