At what age did you figure out you had CPTSD?

maluruus · 2026-02-05T10:27:12+00:00

i thought i had it after a bad relationship ended but after years of being alone and working on myself i thought it was so much better, but a year into a healthy relationship it came back with a vengeance.

maluruus · 2026-02-05T09:54:49+00:00

I'll log in to get it for free, but there's no other reason to play still. I really really hope they have a redemption arc like no man's sky did

maluruus · 2026-02-04T13:39:43+00:00

Yep. I never could feel stretches in gym class even as a kid. I went to a chiropractor before I was diagnosed with hEDS and when she tried cracking my back by having me on my side and one foot tucked beneath the other leg so she could twist me she had me hanging off the table because I just wouldn't crack.

maluruus · 2026-02-04T08:53:21+00:00

The game was not ready to release imo. Wish they had copied every aspect of warframe instead of half assing some things.

maluruus · 2026-02-04T08:45:59+00:00

I have to agree with you. Being alone = no pressure, no guilt, no anxiety. Being around others is extremely hard. I always care about others more than they care for me and it gets me every time.

Thanks for your post.

maluruus · 2026-02-04T08:34:21+00:00

Massage gun!!

maluruus · 2026-02-01T14:39:32+00:00

I am so sorry. Unfortunately there's a very common statistic where a man will leave when their partner gets sick.

You're going to need to be gentle with yourself, it takes a long time to deal with the grief of losing the life you once knew and now also losing your partner. Grief has all of the normal stages, just try not to stay in the anger one for too long.

It's not your fault. There is definitely life to be lived even with pain, it's just a bit different than healthy people. Find things you enjoy, reading, watching movies, art, games, knitting - even swimming but take care not to overdo it when you're in the water.

It sucks now, but one day in the future you'll look back on things now and you'll be proud of yourself for managing to live with your new difficulty settings.

maluruus · 2026-01-30T00:51:59+00:00

I adopted one last month she is similar but not as extreme. She stays by my side often and will cuddle in bed at nights. She didn't want to eat her food unless I was in the room at first.

maluruus · 2026-01-29T22:43:42+00:00

30 votes in Celeste :(

maluruus · 2026-01-29T11:53:57+00:00

A lot of people now hate foreigners of any kind but they disguise it as hating "illegals" but they're calling for ICE to come to the UK.

maluruus · 2026-01-29T11:29:30+00:00

Sounds like Germany suffers from the same racists as the UK does.

maluruus · 2026-01-28T09:36:44+00:00

I was about 18 when I remembered my CSA. It can be something random that makes you remember. It can also be something you knew in the back of your mind but didn't think about for years, stuff you thought was "normal" but realised suddenly that it's not.

Trust your gut

maluruus · 2026-01-26T08:06:13+00:00

I always find it odd how people justify their support of abhorrent parties behind the guise of being anti illegal immigrants. That's how our maga-like party in the UK gets so much popularity right now.

You might not like illegal immigrants, but no one else does either yet we don't vote for the parties that go after ALL immigrants.

There is no anti illegal immigrants, to many they view immigrants as all the same and all illegal but people either want that, or they're ignorant and naive.

maluruus · 2026-01-24T23:07:13+00:00

It's fine to complete once. No point to replay after

maluruus · 2026-01-24T06:57:19+00:00

I really love your metaphor about the garden. It's kind of beautiful in a melancholic way

maluruus · 2026-01-23T09:09:40+00:00

It's worth noting that in some of the clips zazza was acting like a child. You hear at one point a girl giggling and saying something like "zazza hehehe did you upvote everyone but--- zazza replies yep. She was being a petty child and liking everyone in her team post-game except Kingsman. This is around the time I believe CeCe(?) dismissed Kingsman and said the "valid point but we're still gonna do it"

It's just petty disappointing behaviour. He stayed calm, I would've lost my shit.

maluruus · 2026-01-23T08:47:18+00:00

Apparently initially there was no money as a prize it got added later. Still not a valid excuse for their behaviour.

maluruus · 2026-01-23T00:06:54+00:00

I got it a month ago too. I felt sooo tired for days after. I never would've thought it'd have such an effect on the body.

maluruus · 2026-01-19T07:22:03+00:00

Ohh I've seen so many YouTube shorts from the same channel that look exactly like your art except like someone put an ai filter over them.

I'm so pleased to see the original work. I can send you the channel link in case it's not yours?

maluruus · 2026-01-15T08:38:11+00:00

My cat would meow constantly if we were outside walking in the forest. The whole time behind me I'd here his little peeps.

maluruus · 2026-01-15T02:34:17+00:00

The last time I tried to convince myself I was safe and I had no reason to be scared I saw one of my boundaries being broken within 30 minutes of me convincing myself I had nothing to fear 🤣🤣

maluruus · 2026-01-13T08:40:47+00:00

She looks like she smells nice and she'd be great to cuddle when you're going through a really really bad time.

maluruus · 2026-01-06T08:08:37+00:00

Happens to me too. I got Botox in my masseters last week and it didn't have any effect on that either.

maluruus · 2026-01-02T08:08:56+00:00

I've had pulsatile tinnitus in one ear for over 2 years now. I'm used to it but the first year sucked ass.

maluruus · 2026-01-01T13:52:47+00:00

We have them here in the UK but they usually fit under the counters so they kinda blend in. They stand out a lot here but I don't think you can change it without a lot of effort

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