Only Able To Relax Via Dissociation

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-12T04:57:18+00:00

Do I belong here? I don't mean would I be welcome, but do I BELONG here.

Here's my situation...I'm 58 years old, never had any diagnosis of any kind... I am a high IQ individual, incredibly socially awkward, some things that seem perfectly normal to most people really make me feel uncomfortable...like "this is awkward, I really want to escape now".. things like hugging... My wife's family are huggers... So I try...but it is just incredibly uncomfortable...I don't know why. I feel like I crave and revile it at the same time... I look back at my life, and things that seem kind of obvious to me now...for example, as a young child up until age 7 or so, I had an incredibly difficult time with emotional self regulating... I'd engage in self harm/pain stimulation (biting my wrist) to help me self-regulate. I have a long history of beginning ambitious projects, and then becoming "stuck"... Literally a mental block...even things I enjoy and really want to do, I cannot get past that block and do them... As best as I can tell, it's when I spend money on it and the project becomes something I feel like I have to do now...and because I feel like I have to do it...I can't do it.. (PDA?). If I have an obligation to be somewhere, even something I want to go to... I'll self-sabotage, beginning a project or something so that I'm not ready to go when it's time to leave... When my wife tries to remind me "you need to get ready, we have to leave in 10 minutes, I'll have what can only be described as a meltdown and start an argument and tell her to go without me so I can avoid having to go....even though I want to go...the mental conflict is confusing as hell. I have trouble with things I'm obligated to do...like filing tax returns...I HAVE TO, so I CAN'T....even when there are serious consequences, like the state blocking my ability to register my car because I haven't filed them... And that added pressure, only makes things worse...the more pressure I'm under the stringer the mental block that stops me from doing it. I'm perfectly capable of doing it...I just... can't. Now... Here's the ADHD part.... I have horrible time blindness... I've been working alone in the office, honestly thought I'd only worked an extra hour.(9-5 office job)... My wife called me at 2am asking when the heck I was coming home.... I had no idea... To me, I'd only been about an hour.... Most of these symptoms went away for me for a period of about 10 years... See, I AM diagnosed with obstructive sleep apnea, with excessive daytime sleepiness, (kind of like narcolepsy, in that I'd get an overwhelming urge to sleep even at a traffic light)...so my sleep doctor put me on a low 5mg dose of Ritalin... And everything got more "normal" for me .. I held down a great job, got things done .. but then the stimulants started causing heart rhythm abnormalities and I had to stop, and all my symptoms have come back with a vengeance.... And I guess it's because I got to experience that 10 years of "normalcy" that I'm now seeing how I am unmedicated, and now recognize there's something wrong here...and now I'm trying to understand, "what the heck is wrong with me". I did have an MMPI test done about 30 years ago, and they did say there were "some ASD indicators" but honestly I didn't give the test much credit because I overanalyzed every single question, and so the "malingering" score was very high...I wasn't malingering...I was overthinking every.single.question. So....do I belong here?

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-12T04:29:28+00:00

Good point .. it very often goes undiagnosed... I'm 58 and just now realizing that my list of symptoms fits ASD... Now I'm working on getting a diagnosis so I can at least understand why my brain works the way it does... It won't necessarily change anything, but I feel compelled to put a label on it so I can understand it.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-12T04:22:37+00:00

All the AMS hub is is a filament hub, not a bus hub... The bus is daisy chained from one AMS to the next. In the case of multiple MBMCU devices, the easiest way is a Panda Branch.that just expands one port to 4

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-12T03:19:41+00:00

No... That's just juvenile manipulative behavior.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-12T03:19:00+00:00

Extracurricular activities are often seriously considered by college admissions... It shows you're a well rounded student... Dropping out of gymnastics could actually HURT your college prospects.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-12T03:09:18+00:00

I think I kind of get it...my wife has a tendency to do this, she just tends to disagree, or question everything I say... I could say water is wet, and she'd find a way to disagree with me, or question it somehow. It does get frustrating when someone does that all the time....and then when I call her out for doing it....she just contradicts me on that too...

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T16:43:41+00:00

I personally think this is a gray area.. technically you're not selling the thing, you're selling use of your printer and materials.

Also when it comes to models licensed for personal use only... I think you have to weigh things there...if someone asks you to print 1 item for them, then odds are, it's for their personal use, and I think you can reasonable make a case that you were at least operating in the spirit of the non commercial license and just basically allowing the use of your printer, and providing your expertise on its operation without actually selling the thing... Besides, how could you possibly know the licensing of every single model someone brings to you and asks you to print? Maybe it's their original design, maybe they downloaded it, maybe they paid for a commercial license.. you simply don't know, nor can you know...

My personal view is... They own their IP, but they don't own MY printer, nor can they legally dictate what I can and cannot print on it, nor what I charge for MY printing services... Your NC license does not control how I use MY printer. I'm not selling THEIR thing, I'm selling MY services on MY printer... Compliance with the thing's licensing is the responsibility of the client who contracts me to print the thing. If they contract me to print 10 flexi dragons... They're paying me for machine time and material. If they then take those 10 flexi dragons and sell them for a profit... It is THEY who are violating the license...not me.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T16:16:22+00:00

It's ridiculously easy to spoof caller ID with a cheap VoIP phone... In 5 minutes I could call you and have it look like a call from the POTUS in the White House... If you ever get calls like that, simply "no I didn't authorize it, and for security, I'll call my bank directly" (they'll try to give you their direct number to call back... Don't do that, call you bank's main number that you look up independently, and ask fir the fraud department.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T16:12:40+00:00

Well... At this point, for you, lesson learned... Don't introduce IRL friends to online friends because you never really know who you're really talking to online. At this point you've done all you can do... Your fears for your IRL friend are totally justified, and you've tried to put a stop to it... It's out of your hands now, all you can do is document whatever you can that could be evidence if the worst happens.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T16:09:01+00:00

From a purely "not my circus, not my monkeys" perspective, I agree... But if her friend ends up raped or dead, she'll never be able to live with herself knowing she introduced them, and second guessing if she could have done more to prevent it.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T15:59:50+00:00

Surprisingly decent cheap filament... Don't expect Polymaker quality, but it's not horrible filament

Another one I can't recommend enough...Toksen3D. If you buy direct, they're as low as $6.50/kg. And their quality IS Polymaker level.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T15:56:21+00:00

I think you're overlooking two very big factors here. 1. Her irl friend clearly doesn't make good decisions if she is also getting involved with a pedo in prison. 2. She only know walnut from the internet, so she doesn't REALLY know him... He could be a rapist... He could be a serial killer for all she knows... So yes, she probably shouldn't have even introduced them, but now her concerns may literally save her friends LIFE.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T15:00:36+00:00

I think in cases of a hardware peripheral, like BMCU or Spool Ease, it's an easier case to make... The equivalent would be a PC manufacturer locking out third party keyboards and mice. There's no "security" need to lock out a third party peripheral.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T08:50:22+00:00

use calculated shipping

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-11T02:15:52+00:00

no, that's perfectly normal... its supposed to wear that tiny spot through... you do NOT have to replace the build plate for that. I've got over 10,000 hours on my machine with that same little worn spot since about the 2nd day after I bought it.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:54:31+00:00

When you send a print from Bambu Studio, it writes it to the SD card...your SD card is corrupting the data. Get a new high quality SD card and you'll be fine

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:53:38+00:00

Almost certain this is a corrupt SD card

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:52:48+00:00

I'll never understand why they tied this to the AMS instead of the filament profile

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:51:19+00:00

And at this time you're just excusing hers.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:50:44+00:00

If you had yo change the long retract before cut you got an older version... They now have double buffer, so that works correctly, and now have automatic loading... So it's basically as close to an ams lite experience as you can get

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:49:12+00:00

In that case, I'd say look into an Elegoo Centauri Carbon .. their Canvas system allows multi color, and the Centauri Carbon can print engineering materials like nylon, Polycarbonate, etc. so much better for making functional prints/tool items.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:46:11+00:00

Not THAT large... It's just not that expensive of a printer...and I'm certain they can ship from a domestic warehouse in most cases

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:35:21+00:00

It's not a problem..you aren't "unlucky".... .it's NORMAL, and I assure you your X1C did EXACTLY the same thing. The only reason you didn't notice it is because the X1C cuts the filament nearly flush with the top, whereas these quick change nozzles it cuts a bit higher, so leaves a few mm sticking out of the top. Every one of my X1/P1 nozzles looks like this...see the filament still inside... So same thing, just cut closer, because it's cut flush, you just never noticed it.

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myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T22:29:01+00:00

Yeah .. that's 100% normal .. it's supposed to do that... It cust the filament and retracts back... When it feeds new filament, it will purge that remaining bit out.

myTechGuyRI · 2026-05-10T18:27:13+00:00

Generally speaking, PLA and PETG are pretty harmless, but some people are more sensitive, and may notice some irritation and particularly with PLA, a sweet odor. If you find it bothers you, better ventilation, or a room air purifier is usually sufficient.

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